Threatened to get hurt by thoughts

It started years ago.. I had a conversion with my brother, he told me that his eye number has become lower and I asked him: how is that your number has become lower and now you don’t need to put eye glasses anymore? And he told me I read about a way that I can do it by jose silva

His main idea was we are all using small part of our brain and we can use much more of it to benefit ourselves and a way he told me that he used to think and imagine himself seeing better
So I decided to try it and before going to sleep I used to imagine my self seeing better and watching numbers and images better than I can if I actually see it.

I used to see a image in my eyes from short distance in a high quality and keep the quality even If I go longer distance.. my brother and this silva made me believe your brain can do more than you think and you can use it for doing things better and improve things
But at some point it became a problem instead of seeing images better I started watch images worse I started get fighting with my self over keeping my self feeling I see better things and not worse and it started a problem for me.. because I felt I can use my mind also to ruin things for me and to make things bad

This made me feel I can be skillful and by my imagination change things in my life and in my self .. but at the same breath it became a nightmare

When I surfed I used to go the sea and I remember it I was waking up in the morning and pray my shoulders wont hurt i remember I had thoughts that threat me ‘’don’t go to the sea your shoulders will hurt’’ and It maybe sound normal but I remember my self going all the way to the sea with my surfboard and before I went inside or short time after I went inside the water my shoulders start to hurt me and I felt it treaky because i could left the sea and it would have stopped I felt back then like my thoughts responsible for the shoulder pain I could have not going to the sea or not surf and If I wanted to go surf the pain would return like a rollete you cant control it.

I believed then and now that it was due to physiological effect but I cannot understand how physiological effect can couse you physical pain

But It wasn’t only surfing.. I felt physiological effect can couse my anything they want if thoughts threatened me that my head will hurt It would hurt and I can feel it same for my eyes and my stomach and my teeth and my ears I can all feel them

I felt that physiological effect can control me and cant be control by me and I saw in my mind thoughts using images and my way of imagination to establish their threats
There were something that are completely not realistic I saw images of me developing cancer cells or a tail or have blood problems and a tumor in my mind..
but I still felt controlled.. they wanted me to have constipation they would finally have it and the fear became larger because things actually happened to me.. lot of their threats have become true.. and so I started to believe that the thoughts have power and I should be warn from them because they can hurt me

I also believe that its Self-fulfilling prophecy but I couldn’t and cannot break they thoughts line of thinking because even if I feel I am stopping or breaking it I still most of the time feel it still happens
I play a lot on fifa on playstation and I had time that I felt good with the game play easily and ran fast easily and my thoughts said ‘’we are not allowing that anymore’’ so you say ok they say it so? But I lost my pace

I had game that during the game I was making great pressure on the opponent I felt I can be anywhere on the field and say ‘’no you cannot do it anymore’’ and I felt that I cant I actually couldn’t don’t it after it

Now I know that Is completely wrong to do it and to give the thoughts powers and put the responsibility of bad things that happen to me on them but they make it seems so make sense sometimes the problem start right away when the thought comes and I am not even In panic
Sometimes I feeling helpless because I know once the thought came bad things will happen
The reality now that I feel owned by my thoughts and they dictate me to do things in a specific way they telling in order keeping my self not being hurt by them to do things like ceremonies and behavior interventions so they make me like their prisoner like im in their hands and controlled and if i wont do what they tell me or do what they tell me i cant they will hurt me

I am scared that If I will go against them they will hurt me.. they threatened me recnenlty about my eyes they told my eye number will be higher and I will pain in me eyes..
And I was on the road by car and I saw Lampposts lights and to the lights I saw addition shape that doesn’t exist when the car came close to the light I saw there is no shape! I close my eyes I tried looking again and I kept seeing the shape I said wtf this never happened .. I said ok maybe I am tired maybe its one day maybe I am not good but things with the eyes kept happened to me in the last weeks.. and I thought their threats do it again

so that’s some of the stories and I have more of how the thoughts make bad things to happen to me
I think the problem is that I believe it and my mind causing the problems automatically because I became use to think 1+1=2

Although it probably not real and thoughts cannot control me just like that it still looks real and sometimes it looks completely real
The problem of stopping it is that the same line of thought also can benefit me and I don’t want to lose the ability of using my mind to affect me and my reality but i do want thoguhts wont be so decisive and rellevant

Dear alon:

Thoughts are mental events in the brain that carry no power unless you act on them.

If you think: "I am an elephant" and even imagine it, you will not become an elephant.

Regarding the imagery, I think the reason imagery works at times is because it involves relaxing while imagining, or visualizing and it is the relaxation, the calm that makes us think more efficiently and in that way, relaxing increases brain power. When we are distressed it is like fog in the brain. When we get calm that fog clears up and we can see.

So it is not the thought or image, it is the relaxing that is the benefit in imagery and visualization!

atina