HOCD anecdote- contradicting itself?

New here. I think I have had HOCD for years, got most of the common symptoms.

Anyway I was really anxious today and heard about something called the finger length test. There's a thread on this in the forum, but in a nutshell it's about how the ring to index finger ratio on guys may indicate sexuality. This is the thought process I had going on as I was reading more and ore about this:

Part 1 : "For most straight guys, their ring finger is longer than their index finger."

I look at my hand, yep, checks out. Ring finger longer than index. Relief.

Part 2: "However, if you have multiple older brothers, the opposite is more likely true- gay men with multiple older brothers tend to have a longer ring finger than index finger."

HOLY CRAP! I have two older brothers and my ring finger is longer! GAY!! Spike city!!!

But then I realize I'm looking at my left hand. What if they mean the right hand? Turns out that they do. So I check my right hand. Index finger and ring finger equal length. So if the study says it's "reversed" with two older brothers, where gay = longer ring finger, I'm not gay!

But then, what if the multiple older brothers thing *doesn't* mean the opposite for short ring fingers? That means gay!!!

So that's when it hit me, what my mind had gone through. My ring finger is longer than my index finger= "proof" of gay! My ring finger NOT longer than my index finger= also "proof of gay". My thought process literally just contradicted itself and didn't care.

If I wasn't taken over by anxiety, I would have laughed at how stupid this is.

You're really welcome here, arnyjk. I hope you won't take any offence that I laughed at your post. "Spike city!" is SUCH an amazing way to put it. And yeah, that is some crazy logic going on with that "reasoning."

Ada wrote:You're really welcome here, arnyjk. I hope you won't take any offence that I laughed at your post. "Spike city!" is SUCH an amazing way to put it. And yeah, that is some crazy logic going on with that "reasoning."

Not a problem. Like I said, part of me finds it really funny too, because it makes no sense and yet I sometimes put so much stock in it.

I tend to hang out with female friends, so at times it's latched on to that, because of the whole "gay guy straight 'girlfriend'" thing. But I know that if I hung out with my male friends more, it would latch onto that instead!