by Snaga » Wed Feb 03, 2016 10:33 pm
I don't know about ERP.
If we're talking intrusive thoughts, I just let them pass thru me without comment, resistance, acknowledgement. These are thoughts. Not behavior.
Have you ever been with the same sex, beyond the adolescent years, and wished to continue the experience? Or wished for same sex experiences and felt like you are not whole without them? Then I guess you're not gay.
You can't directly argue with OCD, using logic. You can use logic, to be obstinate against OCD.
I'm Bi. Don't want to be, hate it, but I'm Bi. I'm also OCD. So ofc I obsess and think, I'm gay I'm gay I'm gay.
I think about, and have always wanted, same-sex experiences. Omg, I'm gay.
No.
All I have to do if watch some of my favorite videos of women that I like, be they musicians, actresses, burlesque dancers... And I get this big silly grin.
Obviously I'm not gay. I may not be straight, but I'm not gay. When I obsess over the gay part of me, it doesn't matter how I feel. I know, from empirical evidence, I'm Bi.
I have harm OCD.
Thoughts of killing people close to me. You and I become an item and have an intimate relationship, I guarantee at some point, I'll have an intrusive thought about killing you.
That sounds pretty damn creepy!
It is! Especially when you're the one thinking it!
Can't argue with OCD. I'll lose control and kill you. I want to kill you. I resent you and feel trapped (ooh a little ROCD in there) and i need to kill you to get rid of you. I won't be able to stop myself from killing you. I'll kill you in my sleep (that's a good one, right there- OCD is clever).
Yeah except for one thing- I hadn't killed nobody. I've thought those thoughts for 40 years. Nope. Still ain't killed nobody.
So.... When I get those thoughts, ###$ it. I'll worry about it when I come to and you're dead. Until then, it's just a thought. Thoughts can't hurt other people. I let the thought think, and refuse to let it frighten me. That's so it's trying to do.
Checking locks, windows, switches. ###$ it. ###$ it and walk away. It hurts to walk away, but you can work your way thru to the other side. Sure I've forgotten things like that, but never when I have that overwhelming need to check over and over. In every case, I OCD over stuff I already have locked, or turned off.
If I were a killer, I'd have killed.
If I were so forgetful I'd burn the house down, it'd be burnt.
If I were gay, I wouldn't check out the chicks.
You can't argue with those things on their own terms. You can't be logical. You can be obstinate. You can not give a rat's ass. You can say Fine, whatever, I'll worry about being gay when I can't keep my hands off that cute guy (girl?) Observed behavior and logic as the basis for illogically being obstinate no matter what arguments the OCD throws at you. I'm not eloquent, I don't know I'm making sense, but that's what works for me.