Did I molest my nephew (

did I molest my nephew? Yesterday I was baby sitting my nieces and nephews. I was changing my nephew who 2 months old. After I changed him, I was rubbing his diaper to see if I had just changed him for nothing or if he actually needed changing because his diaper looked puffy so i wondered if I changed his because it looked puffy and I thought he needed changing. I'm not sure if making any sense. When I was feeling his diaper I touched his penis on accident. I remember having a weird feeling after it happened . I felt nervous after this happened. So I felt his pamper again to check to see if I felt th same feeling i had when I felt diaper the first time . I didn't at all and I felt weird. But I think I touched his private again after I checked. I'm not sure, I don't really remember. I didn't intend to touch him in a sexual way. But I remember feeling guilty afterwards and feeling like I meant to do it. I never done anything like this before ever. I wasn't having bad thoughts before this happened. Now I'm having thoughts about molesting him and about being a child molester. This has been on my mind all night and I cried about yesterday. I didn't tell anyone about it because I'm afraid that I did something bad. I never been this situation before and I'm really scared I'm a bad and evil person. I replayed this situation over and over in my mind and something keeps telling me I did something or I meant to touched him that. way. Did I molest him or is there something wrong with me?
P.s I never been attracted to children in a sexual way at all this just happened yesterday . I feel horrible abut what happened. Can someone please help me????? I'm afraid I did something horrible and I don't think I can live with myself if I done hurt my nephew in a bad way. Please help??????

Short version?

No.

Please tell me how you can clean up a baby without touching them.....


No, sweet pea, sounds like you've got a nice OCD-style intrusive thought going on, there. You're upset over what to most ppl would have been nothing. You've nothing to feel remorseful over, you didn't do anything bad. Don't let your brain trick you into thinking you've done something awful when you haven't. You can hardly avoid touching a baby down there when you're cleaning them up. There's nothing sexual about it. These kinds of thoughts go thru my mind, too, when I happen to be changing a diaper, and I know (well, read) that these kinds of thoughts flicker thru ppls mind all the time and most of them think nothing of it, it's a silly thought. So I tell myself that that's a silly thought, and I don't give it any more of my attention. I know I'm not going to do anything malicious to a child. And I don't allow my OCD to make me scared.

Not saying you have OCD, but you're exhibiting behaviour very like someone with the disorder, we will think something, then obsess over it thinking we're awful, or that we're something we're not. People come in this forum worried about being some kind of pedophile all the time, when they're nothing of the sort. Because they thought something, or did something that is objectively perfectly innocent (such as patting a diaper or touching a baby's genitals when taking care of them), or heard someone say something, then boom their mind latches onto that, they get frightened, and start thinking well I must be (fill in the blank). No sweets, you're not a child molester.

I'll add I have changed diapers, and bathed babies... and have patted clean nekkid baby bottoms because that's what you do, right? They're cute. They get patted.

So anyway I pat this butt and got that thought in the back of my head someone will think I'm a molester, or maybe I did this because I'm a pedophile. Rubbish. Babies have been touched and patted and otherwise shown affection to for all of human existence. Go down that path, and I'd be afraid to even look at a child in short order. It's nuts, I'm not going to succumb to a mind-game where I'm second-guessing my motive behind everything I do. I've never had a sexual attraction for children, and all the empirical evidence (what I do, say, and think when I'm not obsessing over some little something like patting a bottom) says I'm not a molester. So I put thoughts like that down to a bunch of bull, and go on with my life.