Am I in denial?

Hi so I'm a teenager. I guess I should start off with saying that I have always had bad ocd. The worst obsessions I've ever had were harm ocd, schizocd, and pocd. The latest obsession is pocd, before it was only of young kids and I would do the mental checking to see if I was grossed out and after awhile that went away. It came back however but not for little kids. I started to obsess over young teens like 13-14. But i WAS attracted to young teens like that, but the thing is though the attraction went away when I started obsessing about it. I didn't think to much of this at first because I thought that my anxiety made me realize how gross it was HOWEVER before my ocd made me obsess about it, it was gradually going away by its self like I started only liking 14 year olds and any younger would gross me out and it would only be sometimes. I recently read somewhere that ocd can make you feel like you lost attraction but it's actually still there and I'm scared that I still am attracted to 14 year olds but my ocd it somehow covering it up. I've been checking a lot and I try to 'force' myself to be attracted to them but I'm just not. I'm happy that I'm not anymore but I'm afraid that it's all fake or an excuse or something. I do the compulsions for hours everyday until I feel nauseous and numb. It's been about 2 months now and the only thing I feel for them is disgust. Please help me. I know it's normal for attractions to change as you age especially since I'm young myself- but is it just my ocd? I'm also afraid that it is there and that im just in denial or repressing it. The only thing I do From the moment I wake up until I go to sleep is "check", rather I'm searching online or conjuring up mental pictures I'm constantly checking. I'm so depressed I can't stop. I spoke to someone on Facebook recently and she reassured me that it was all ocd but I need more reassurance. Please help is this just ocd that's making me doubt myself? Am I still attracted to 14 year olds? Please help!!!

You are not in denial, or a pedo, or crazy, you have OCD. POCD, HOCD, SOCD, are all the exact same thing, its just another phase of OCD, and the reason why you keep getting a new phase is your unconscious mind finding relief from anxiety. I believe you had a thought of being a pedo, you then started to obsess over it as you said, OCD not only makes you obsess but can latch onto your emotional mind and make you feel attracted to younger girls, and make you feel that's its real when its just OCD playing tricks on you. You are questioning everything your doing and im sure all you have been doing and the reason your here is to seek reassurance, find answers based on your questions but no matter how many answers i give you, your going to find something else, because that's what OCD does.

I firstly recommend to stop looking up answers, what this will do is make you come across something you don't want to hear, and then begin obsessing over to increase your anxiety, thus making your ocd worse.

You need to tell yourself that you are not a pedo because you have clear evidence of this:
1. You aren't because your so afraid, your here telling us out of fear, as a pedo dosnt feel fear based on what they do.
2. You recognize that this is another phase and an obsession which is excellent.

I'm guessing you probably feel like no matter how much your told and have facts, you still don't feel better right? Thats because the emotional part of the OCD is taking over, what you need to do is train your logical mind to overwrite your emotional OCD lies. I have OCD and ive overcome it using a technique:

Try to write down on a piece of paper, or say in your mind every time you have a thought of being a pedo. To pick an option:
Option 1. I am a pedo
Option 2. I am not a pedo because im obsessing and this is just my OCD.
Once you keep on doing this, eventually the anxiety will diminish because your using logic over OCD lies. PM Me if you need anymore questions.

Thank you so much for replying it helps a lot! I'm going I see a psychiatrist soon and get help for this.
However I'm still afraid that I'm just repressing my attractions to young teens because it went away completely when I started obsessing about it and before I was still attracted sometimes. Does it sound like I'm repressing it?

No it sounds like your obsessing over repressing it, your doubting yourself, your questioning the "what if" that's a symptom of OCD, first step is recognizing that. And im glad i could help