Frozen in Place

Sometimes my anxiety is so overwhelming that I end up getting frozen in one spot, doing nothing for oh, a couple hours? Sometimes my attention span dies down to the point where my thoughts stop and people complain telling me I'm ignoring them. I've been told many things, from having catatonia to aspergers, which the second one I've been diagnosed multiple times. I have all the symptoms of it except I have OCD as well and I seek advice for this.

My main problem is, say you have something to do, and you are extremely nervous all the time anyways, so not doing this will result in your destruction, but you have to do it, and then you giveup, but your brain pulls you in a different direction.

It's a civil war within my mind. One side says youhave to do it or you will loose your job, grade, car, etc, and the other says not to do it because you are independent and you function as a solitary unit outside of society, you are above the rest and your very cells are individually so connected that you cannot be beaten just by a silly challenge, so just don't do it. Yes, those are the thoughts I have to battle every day. Any advice/

so not doing this will result in your destruction, but you have to do it,

^ this is basically the force behind my compulsions. If I didn't do the compulsions my life was over, my brain would torture me the rest of my life. Of course, when I called it's bluff, it might torture me for a while, but it eventually gave up. How long it tortured me was based on how bad my anxiety was at the time, which is the same for anyone who suffers OCD.

But you have been diagnosed with Aspergers, so I'm sure that complicates things. Did you get a diagnosis for OCD? Are you getting any kind of support for either or both?

Otter.

Otter wrote:

so not doing this will result in your destruction, but you have to do it,

^ this is basically the force behind my compulsions. If I didn't do the compulsions my life was over, my brain would torture me the rest of my life. Of course, when I called it's bluff, it might torture me for a while, but it eventually gave up. How long it tortured me was based on how bad my anxiety was at the time, which is the same for anyone who suffers OCD.

But you have been diagnosed with Aspergers, so I'm sure that complicates things. Did you get a diagnosis for OCD? Are you getting any kind of support for either or both?

Otter.

Yes and yes. I forgot to add that in this state I am unable to complete my compulsions. It's like you're burning, and there's water next to you but you're paralyzed and unable to reach the water. I can't even explain how much I get filled with emotion and frustration at this.

Sorry to hear about this. It was the same way with me. Sometimes I would just sit there and shake, unable to do much.