My HOCD feels so real please help

Ok so I've already told a few stories in other post but quick background on me

I'm an early age teenager. About a year ago my OCD came back and this time it made me question whether I was a lesbian or not. Back then I could control it but now there's this one thing that really bugs me.

Now that I'm back in school I'm in class with these two girls. Last year they were just people I would talk to now and then but now they're nicer to me. They're both pretty and I like their personalities. BUT HERES THE THING

After I started talking to them for a while I started to feel like emotionally connected to them. I started to want to get their attention and talk to them and sit next to them because they make me happy. This is nothing sexual. I have not once even looked at their boobs. I'm not sexually attracted to them, but I'm worried that I'm gay because I feel happy when I'm with them. Does that make me gay? I'm not nervous around them like I used to be with boys. However now my attracted to men has left

I just don't want to be gay. I have nothing against them but I don't want to be one myself. I have always been attracted to boys and wanted to marry one and have children. I know I'm not gay but this feels so real. It's like my libido is gone completely. This is causing extreme depression

I don't want to fall in love with my friends. Did what I describe mean I'm gay? ;(

I think what you described is worrying about being gay. I mean, they sound like friends. You don't have the hots for them.

Appearing to lose attraction for the opposite sex seems to be a very common HOCD thing. There nothing I or anyone can say that will provide you with certainty that you're not gay, because OCD seeks infinite assurance. You have to remember that you're not gay, and remind yourself of that, and not let intrusive thoughts bother you. It sounds hard, but it's all in the p to ignore intrusive thoughtsractice. The more you do it, the easier it gets

snaga2.0 wrote:I think what you described is worrying about being gay. I mean, they sound like friends. You don't have the hots for them.

Appearing to lose attraction for the opposite sex seems to be a very common HOCD thing. There nothing I or anyone can say that will provide you with certainty that you're not gay, because OCD seeks infinite assurance. You have to remember that you're not gay, and remind yourself of that, and not let intrusive thoughts bother you. It sounds hard, but it's all in the p to ignore intrusive thoughtsractice. The more you do it, the easier it gets

This EXACTLY. You can be friends with someone, seek their attention and NOT be gay. That's what friends are for, to make you feel good about yourself, and to help you. Wanting their attention isn't gay, it's normal. Trust me, I'm a bearded biker looking guy, and when I was a kid, there was this one dude who was so smart, funny and cool and I wanted to hang out with him all the time. Not because I was attracted to him, but because we had fun and enjoyed each other's company.