Schizophrenia or anxiety + DP? Brain not functioning

Hi everybody!
I'm male, 20 years old. I would like to thank in advance everybody who will read and comment this and I apologize for my English.

Recently i became obsessed with the idea that i may develop schizophrenia. I didn't have this fear and didn't notice that something is wrong with me until I saw a psychiatrist about my derealization (I had it for quite a long time) and told her some of the weird thoughts that I had (mostly about reality and consciousness). Although the two other doctors I saw then disproved that, I started to have weird symptoms. I believe that they are mostly because of my overanalyzing and anxious mind is trying to shut down itself from my weird thoughts and fears, however, I also want to hear your opinion.

So, after I heard that I may possibly develop schizophrenia, I became obsessed even more about the nature of life, reality, brain, myself and other existential questions. It made me feel scary and confused.

Then I started to google schizophrenia prodrome symptoms and associated many of it with myself (which is quite usual thing for anxious people). For example I read about excessive sleeping and this was what was happening with me, as I slept even during the day, because I wanted to do nothing as I couldn't make sense of anything.

Then I read about speech problems and I really sometimes had problems with my words before. Then once I had a made up word in my dream (neologism) and I also associated this with schizophrenia symptom . I started to pay attention to what I was saying and to this made up word and developed a very strange symptom like "feeling wrong words inside my mouth". Its like there is a flow of letters on my tongue and I literally want to spit them. This made me feel very weird. However later I found on wikipedia that that neologism thing is called "dream speech" and may happen to normal people.

Then I was away from home for one week (camp), where there were social activities and some kind of intellectual work. I found it difficult there to think normally and get through the day. I always felt that I can't think as I always could, couldn't participate in conversations normally and wanted to do nothing. I had the feeling that my brain is only half-functioning. I also had depersonalization, I didn't always "feel myself", in the mornings I wanted nothing but to stay in the bed.

After that my feeling that my brain is not functioning has become even worse. I feel that there is too much information around me and I can't process it. I feel that I can't think, everything seems weird and confusing, I become very tired after talking with parents and being outside, it becomes difficult to look at objects around me, to multiply numbers, although I've always been quite smart. I continue to have very weird existential thoughts, different depersonalization sensations. However, there are rare moments when I may feel "normal", mostly when I'm in my room with computer (like now).

So, what is your opinion? Why do I have that weird brain functioning? I'm still worried that it may be connected with decrease in functioning in schizophrenia prodrome. Or maybe my mind just doesn't want me to think about such weird stuff? Does anybody know if people with prodromal schizophrenia actually feel that it is difficult for them to think?
Thank you!

My opinion.... is that when I approved this post, I took the liberty of moving it from LWMI to the OCD forum.....

OCD will mess your mind up. Big time. And make you think all sorts of things.

But you already know that.

I think you should hook up with this fellow right here:

obsessive-compulsive/topic168122.html

This is actually interesting and serendipitous. You're the second poster in a short time that's worried about having schizophrenia.

I personally think you are, as you yourself have admitted is a possibility, overthinking it, having OCD paterns of thought over your fear, etc. One thing you'll have to do is stop checking, reading up on schizophrenia, etc. For example I'm a king hypochondriac, and I've finally learned to stop looking up diseases. I don't look up my perceived symptoms, I don't mess with it. The minute I hear something, I've got that disease. I have to just walk away from the temptation. And if I hear ppl talking about a disease I will cover my ears, if I have to. Literally.

Anyway, I think you and Snowmann9 have much in common right now. You are not alone in this.

Coming from experience here. I can relate to a lot of this.

Depersonalization and derealization can make you feel like your cognitive ability is declining among other weird symptoms. It's also many times a direct result of anxiety and obsessive compulsive disorder. Dissociation (which DP/DR are a mild form of) have many, many causes and definitely do not point a finger towards your fears.

In fact, people with OCD have a much higher likelihood of experiencing these symptoms. Here's a non triggering journal article about this...but DO NOT research this further.

http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/20035254

Additionally, if you have OCD than you have a 2% chance of developing schizophrenia. So there's a 98% chance that you won't. You have similar odds of dying in a car crash to getting this, and you still worry about it.

I know it sucks, and that OCD sucks. Just try your hardest to not try and get certainty about this. Accept whatever symptoms your getting and try to live life the best you can without analyzing this.

I've had many of your symptoms and believe me it will get better.