honestly don't know if I have ROCD

I dunno really if I've got rocd. A year and a half ago I think I got HOCD. I haven't had normal attraction to guys in so long...but when I get ROCD I'll be attracted to other guys...mainly my boyfriends older brother. And then I worry why am I not attracted to my boyfriend? I feel terrible because he'll want to just make love but I'm always never in the mood, and I get frustrated because I can't bring myself to have sex. last time we did I got so frustrated and started crying. I just don't understand why I'm not attracted to him anymore, he's my best friend and I love him so. We had a good sex life and we were perfect before my OCD problems flared up over a year ago. will the passion and love I had for him ever come back? Because if I broke it off with him it'd be like losing a part of myself.

worriedgirl103 wrote:I will the passion and love I had for him ever come back?

I don't think your question can be answered in an OCD/anxiety context. Anxiety can mask or make false our thoughts and bodily reactions. Many people who suffer anxiety disorders (and depression), report a loss of sexual desire, or a confusion of sexual desires.

But love? Love is a perception of the ideals we have come to believe about it, fueled with the power of emotion.

In order to truly understand your feelings (sexual or otherwise), it is best if anxiety is not clouding your judgment. Work the anxiety.

Otter.

Otter- sorry for the late response. but after so long, I have no anxiety with these thoughts anymore. I definitely am depressed, and have a hard time feeling anything positive. I feel like all the joy in my life has left me. I haven't felt attraction for my boyfriend in so long, I wonder if there's even a chance it's still there, and I keep questioning my relationship and then begin to cry from my thoughts. I feel no hope about anything anymore, I've made a lot of lifestyle changes to help my depression yet I feel none of them work. I feel like I'm starting to resent my boyfriend, and everything he does annoys me, yet he's the only person I wish to be around, and we plan on moving in together soon. I'm just very lost in my life and need help.