***How Are You Feeling Today???*** (may trigger)

I'm a little anxious today, trying to ignore it and not feed it

I'm really struggling, I am in immense psychological pain and cannot cope.

I dunno if I am transsexual or just have OCD

I feel uncomfortable when I wear a t-shirt that shows my chest and I feel uncomfortable when I see my dick

PLEASE PLEASE HELP ME SOME ONE

I think I am trans

I felt as complete $#%^... Thinking about everything related to my past.. And the past years... But after drinking.... I feel real calm.. HOCD... It is such a killer.. I am glad when i am back laying in bed with my girlfriend... I hate this thoughts.. And this disorder...

I've had some health anxiety lately. I will often suffer physical symptoms that could be either a totally dreadful disease, or merely a symptom of anxiety. I will suffer thru them for a time, then they eventually get replaced by another symptom of anxiety.

Feeling very anxious today, in panic mode over work. Feel old, tired, and wore out from frequent anxiety. Not suicidal, by any means, but one of those days part of you wants to just die and get it over with, you know? Go ahead and kill me now kind of day.

Hey All,

Feel pretty down and depressed today. The thoughts is keeping the string on my body. Had a mental breakdown this morning where I only cried and cried... Have to see a new therapist in about 20 minutes... still affraid what she is going to tell me ...

After this I had some sort of dreams about the theme "being Gay".. what even woke me up more depressed...

It feels like I am so depressed that even some sort of suicidal thoughts come up in my mind.. But I won't let this tear me down... I hope...

I am still on meds Citalopram 40 mg... but I don't feel it is doing any different to me now... I keep obsessing about my youth.. Were the crushes real.. Did I really like the 2000 porn vids and the 5000 fantasies I had with girls... Or am i Just not accepting myself... and never wanted to believe that I turend gay on the age of 15th.. When this fear.. feeling .. thought .. I don't know what it is anymore.. It only ruined my life more ... Always when I searched up for porn after.. I just skipped the whole gay part.. Never wanted something to see with two guys sharing the bed together... But even this my mind counterattacks me like "Yeah you repressed it"...

When I look at my girlfriend.. Thoughts pop in that I don't like her.. Don't like her face .. etc... And normally when we went to shower... my lil bing bong will go hard in 1 sec.. Now It is just plain hanging there...

I can't normally pee anymore... It takes so much effort to even try to pee... I feel so .. freaking .. down ...

I am really really rock bottom at the moment... and sometimes wished indeed that my mind could shut itself off.. even if it would be for 30 tot 60 minutes.. Just to feel kind of free again..

I'm improving. Like, to the point I don't know if my obsessive thoughts even count as pure O this point.

I still feel anxiety. I still feel the need to run through thoughts in my head and "check". But it's not as strong, not as demanding.
I did trigger myself on accident on Tuesday & I think that was probably OCD that day. But it didn't linger into the next day. I got triggered last night and I was freaked out the rest of the night, but the thoughts were easier to dismiss.

I'm still trying to avoid triggering too much doubt. But seems I am genuinely improving.

I feel great since I discovered over active adrenal glands were causing my compulsions. I just relax them the same way you would relax your hands feet or tummy and for me the compulsions disappear immediately. So as not to be relaxing them every few hours I nourished them by supplementing with magnesium. *mod edit*

Hi everyone, long time no post.

Well it's happening again. I'm getting POCD spikes. All because I shared an anti-pedo thing on facebook and one of my friends linked an article about pedos who have never assaulted anyone and feel horrible and want to get help. It's good that they realize there's a problem and want to do something about it, but I personally still don't think it's okay. but it's triggered me, and it's very unsettling. I feel this very uncomfortable feeling in my chest, which usually happens if I get triggered by something, but of course my brain is all like "nah you're identifying with what the article is saying"

and the funny part is, when my freind posted that link, I just knew it would probably trigger me, and what did I do? I looked at it, cause my curiosity won out and I like torturing myself apparently.



On an un-OCD-related thing, has anyone ever crushed on a person they know they'll never be able to have? I'm dealing with that right now.

Anyone ever heard of Game Grumps? or the band Ninja Sex Party?
for those who have, you've probably guessed where this is going.
That's right, I'm crushing on Dan Avidan, aka Danny Sexbang.

I can't help it, he's so cute and sweet and I love his laugh, and his singing, and he's handsome and tall...he's also 16 years older than me. I'm going to be 23 in a few months, which means he's 39 (his birthday was a few months ago). that, and because my chances of meeting him are slim to none, and even then I look way younger than I am (I look like I haven't even graduated high school yet. Talk about jailbait...My grandmother and step grandfather are 16 years apart in age. she is almost old enough to be his mom, he's only 6 years older than MY mom) I know age is just a number after a certain point but still...people still talk. Plus he doesn't even know i exist, and it'll probably stay that way unless some miracle happens...

I had a dream the other night that we were married. Nothing really intimate happened, we were just cuddling a lot and holding hands and he was showing me off to everyone like "this is my adorable wife" and hhhhhhhhhh it was lovely. It would almost be comedic because of how much taller he is than me. Idk how tall he is, but I'm relatively on the short side so...

I know it sounds borderline stalker, and I don't want to be like that. That wouldn't end well for anyone involved

Hi everyone suffering ocd, anxiety, depression.
I started using the one affirmation and start feeling better already.
It goes like this : I invite you to make me to love me
I invite you to make me to forgive me...
And then you might think what you want to forgive yourself or visualize it and maybe you need to forgive to someone else.
And ofcourse its very important that you do the same sentence with trusting yourself, trusting life, trusting other people.And also that you try with "i invite you to make me feel that im worthy of life.
And you keep repeating those things, i know for ocd repetition might not sound like a good idea but you might try if that makes any better sensation in your body, and if not, then dont.
As far as i understand, at least for me anxiety or ocd is often an ego part which is angry towards yourself and it makes you vulnerable and you feel under control of it.
I tried everyday saying that i love myself, i forgive myself etc.
But it didnt make any sensation in my body, but when i tried this what i mentioned before, it totally felt different.
So go ahead and try and your mind might eventually break free.
Love to all