Help!

Hi, I've been wondering if I have Pure O...

Recently I was worried about becoming crazy - losing my mind. It started after I read a paper for school about schizophrenia. It got to the point where I questioned my entire reality - was life just like "A Beautiful Mind", had I already gone insane?

In the past I've worried about my health (heart, brain, eyes etc), hurting others (family, friends), hurting myself, becoming a pedophile or being a pedophile (and I'm only 17!).

I've also been feeling really depersonalized, like things are not real. I've been questioning existence and these thoughts like "it's so weird to be me" keep popping up. I'm scared I might have DID (is this a new personality trying to break in?)

Any help will be appreciated!

is this a new personality trying to break in?

No, I think it is just you thinking too much about something that will only end-up depressing you. The solution therefore is to not think about it and just get on with your life. Tell me, what were you doing before you read that article: Were you happy? ; Depressed? ; Lonely?


Get back to your normal ways and do not worry about something that most likely isn't there. Too many people WANT an illness and they oftentimes spend so much thought over it that they end-up getting it. You don't want to venture down this path.


Kevster.

Thanks man - deep down I know that's the case, but I can;t stop from worrying/obsessing over it.

Before I became depersonalized I definately know I was feeling anxious/scared.

The weird thing about it is my memories seem to me as though I was "drunk" throughout my entire life/childhood. They seem foreign - is this a common symptom of DP/OCD?

I'll be seeing a Psych shortly hopefully to try and work it all out. Hurrah hurrah (I suppose).

cheers, cheerios and cheerleaders,
ian

I'm not sure what you mean by being 'drunk' in your early childhood - I have never heard of anyone describe it like that. Certainly, if you think about your past a lot and try to imagine what it was like to be 'you' in the past then things will seem weird. They will seem weird because the brain constantly changes and your brain now would look nothing like your childhood brain (This is of course referring to the microscopic level, not the macroscopic level).


Psychiatrists can be 'fun' and there should be no negativity associated with them. Involve yourself in the sessions and do not conceal your true self.


Kevster.

It's kind of like my memories do not belong to me. It's a feeling as though I have no future, and no history...

I've definately been obsessing over what makes a person a person - for example why was I born in this body and not someone else. I've also, because of these feelings of being detached, worried about DID - I doubt I have it, there are no other personalities within me. For sme reason I read about it, then started worrying about it right afterward.

I've worried about being given meds - will they kill the real me? Leaving someone else in my place (I k now they alter brain chemostry etc). It sounds so ridiculous, but I've been obsessing to the point of tears...

I've been feeling on edge, and often worry about going insane.

Taking pills is the exact same as eating regular food. In fact, food will have a much greater affect on your body than pills will due to the diversity of chemicals in food (Pills typically contain just one chemical). Sometimes we just need pills in order to 'complete' our nutriment intake.


You were not 'put into' your body. You are 'you' due to the complex combination of billions of atoms that interact in such a way as to make you who you are. This notion of self causes problems for people. In reality we are no different from rocks, trees, couches, jugs, stars, ..., anything.


Kevin.

i have the same sort of thoughts!

i have such a laugh with my Psychiatrist, he is so intelligent like me! and his someone i can have 'real' conversastions with, thats how i see him anyway!

i often think of memories and think 'that wasnt me!' even though it obviously was! but i think its because you change and mature as you grow so you see things different than you would back then.............