a little help requested please (obsession over braindamage)

hello.

As you may or may not know from my other topic, I have recently received productive therapy for my Harm OCD, but unfortunately my obsessions decided to play a trick on me and focus on something entirely different, but thankfully less distressing. Lately I've been obsessing that I might have acquired brain damage from my 11 years of severe harm OCD. This obsession can get a little nasty because I've noticed a trend of anger I for having my obsessions and the accompanying depression they bring me. This anger is directed at myself, because I am distressed that I have chosen a new obsession after making so much progress. The problem lies in that when I obsess about the possibility of me having brain damage, I get incredibly anxious with myself and punish myself for thinking the thoughts, when my attention should lie in more productive areas. I've noticed when I have a thought coming, my brain starts to hurt when I resist the thought.

My question is, should I be more gentle with myself and allow mistakes when my mind wanders? I have heard of some OCD methods that include "thought stopping" and the "rubber band method", and these methods probably contributed to my approach of being forceful in trying to interrupt my thoughts. I'd like to NOT think these thoughts, but when I do slip up and think them, I suppose I should find more healthy outlets for getting rid of my thoughts, such as distracting myself. Any advice would be greatly appreciated.

Thanks for reading.

sorry for the double post. This is the unedited version. I'm not sure how to delete this one. Can a moderator take care of that for me?

hi.. i'm sorry it can't be deleted, but i am going to lock this thread to avoid the confusion

note to others:
please refer to this thread
obsessive-compulsive/topic158258.html

thank you