I'm trying to be label-free

I'm so sick of my stupid HOCD. I've tried this before, but right now I'm trying to not label my sexuality. It isn't really working. Most of the day I think about not labelling my sexuality and dating girls. I feel fine until I think I'm attracted to a guy and spike again. Even though I'm trying to not care about labels. Ugh, why do I still have to spike around guys?

those physical responses are the result of anxiety... keep trying and not to analyze these thoughts when it does