My OCD battle.

Hi guys,

My name is alen and I'm 25 years old, I have been suffering with OCD for about 4 to 5 years and it is driving me insane to the point it's affecting my like physically, mentally and emotionally.
I've tried so hard to fight a endless losing battle and I always lose... The compulsions are so strong that they affect everything I try to do... Whether it's showering, reading, writing, watching tv, smoking , eating I absolutely mean everything... It affects me in so many ways and I try to hide it from my wife, I've been married for a year now and we are expecting a child in june, I've been to a therapist and he prescribed me some pills but they haven't help, I just don't know what to do anymore as I right this I'm having compulsions on what to write how to write it and how many times to write it.

I just don't know what to do anymore more guys I know CBT will help and apply it but then I fail, the thoughts are so strong about bad things happening it cripples me... I found this forum and I hope it helps I really need this... I can't do this anymore... I don't feel like a normal person any more and I feel like a slave to my OCD... Please guys any type of support would be great.

hi Alen..

i'm sorry this is happening to you. i've been going through the same thing for almost 15 years now. but i'm doing much better. like you, the compulsions are really strong and they affect everything i do, so i know how terrible and exhausting it is.

it may seem impossible to you right now, but you definitely can get through this, you need to practice not to performing compulsions. i said practice because i know it's not easy and it takes time and process. but the thing i realized when i'm working on it, ocd is like a part of learned behavior. you need to force yourself stop performing the compulsions or at least reduce it, it's ok to start slow. it's extremely hard at first but trust me once you learn how to stop performing your rituals,your brain will start reacting as well. the thing is, the more you teach your brain the right way you want it, the better it will understand

again i know it's not easy, but you can't let your rituals end up controlling you like this. i hope you'll find some comfort here, hang in there. i hope others will chime in with their responses.

good luck

Hey

I understand what you're going through but you need to keep up therapy and taking those pills because it will help as long as you keep doing what the therapst says. It will get easier with time and you'll begin to feel better. Make sure you keep yourself occupied from the thoughts go and spend time with your family, go out with friends, go to the gym (exercise will help), do things that will make you happy and keeps your mind off things

You're doing well

Thank you very much guys for the responses, this definitely helps a lot, I will try my best to not react to compulsions, I'm having one right now and I'm not trying to do my rituals, when I wake up I'm fine soon as half an hour passes my compulsions start, i šake up every day saying to my brain please don't do it today,
I will defiantly practice not doing my rituals.

Alyo_, good luck with trying not to give in to your compulsions! Remember, that's the only way to make your OCD less extreme.

Did you read obsessive-compulsive/topic103176.html too?

Wow!, thank you Lockhead, this post really helped, I haven't been a member of this forum for long but I feel very empowered to take in my OCD.