OCD. thoughts of being opposite sex

so i have a lot of time on my hands to think about stupid things lately. when i was younger i never compared myself to other guys or anything(I'm a guy). now that I'm older i find myself doing just that. watching porn i will always thing to myself "is my penis good enough for a women"? now i don't have a small penis nor do i have a huge porn penis. but i then said to myself "well if you were a girl would you want to have sex with yourself?" i imagined myself with a vagina and a penis inside of it..it feels so real and its scary. i don't want to be a woman but the thought of having a vagina feels good for some reason and its weird to me. i don't even know what its like to have a vagina because i never had one..but for some reason in my head i can imagine it and it feels like it would feel good. obv if i was a woman with a vagina then having sex would feel good. these thoughts are bothering me. i just want them to stop. whats wrong with me?

Hi BT

We can't diagnose here, and even if we could, we would need more info.

Not much of what you have written seems to correlate with OCD. That doesn't mean you don't suffer from it, it just means nothing jumps out at me, as one who has suffered for many years.

I have had some of your thoughts, kind-of, especially as my sexuality (not to be mistaken with gender) started to evolve. We are a brain in a body, and the whole darn thing is pretty complex. Add sexuality to the soup and it becomes really complex.

What we see in the world around us, especially graphic things, such as porn, really sends us for a ride. Not just our mind, but our body too. All that information needs to be processed and understood. So, not only do we have thoughts about these things, but our body feels them.

My point about all of this is, it might just be a phase that your body is learning to understand. What you said, it NOT ABNORMAL.

However, porn is a power thing. Maybe you should slow down or stop for a while. Let your mind rest.

Whatever the case, if your feelings of anxiety start to get worse, with or without porn, maybe you should seek help. Don't let that get out of control.

Otter.

"Not much of what you have written seems to correlate with OCD."
okay ur scaring me are u trying to say there is something deeper here?

when i posted this topic i didnt mean it felt natural to have a vvagina like i was born in the wrong body..i meant that when imagine myself with a vagina and having sex it feels good..thats whats scaring me.. and i try to test myself and i keep thinking about it to see if i can gross myself out...when i think of it it gives me goosebumps because its gross..but then i can imagine it feeling good too..its all so weird. i have had hocd and it weighs the same on my mind as hocd..the thoughts scare me i don't want to think them any more

what I was saying is, I need more info about the OCD, to say that is seemed like that is what is happening. All you wrote about was these thoughts you were having.

second. I am a heterosexual male. and I like being male. but i have had the same thoughts you have had, more or less. i have also had gay fantasies in my life, and plenty of other things. i have even had two men ask me if I wanted to try "the other side".

No to all. I am heterosexual.

My point is, our sexuality isn't black and white. you can have thoughts as you are and there may be NOTHING that lies deeper than just the thoughts. So what you took from my meaning is actually the opposite. I am saying, don't kill yourself because you have some non-mainstream thoughts. EVERYONE has them. Some may not admit it, but we all do. It doesn't mean we are anything but what we want to be.

On the other hand, as I said, if your thoughts are starting to attack you, like OCD can, then seek help.

BurningThoughts88 wrote: and i try to test myself and i keep thinking about it to see if i can gross myself out...when i think of it it gives me goosebumps because its gross..but then i can imagine it feeling good too..its all so weird. i have had hocd and it weighs the same on my mind as hocd..the thoughts scare me i don't want to think them any more

testing is just going to make things worse. i didn't know you had hocd, and I can't assume. have you been diagnosed?

applying black and white thinking it going to make it worse. if your brain sends you a snapshot of something you fear, and you take the hook and make it worse, then you may well be in a state of anxiety that is causing OCD.