Contamination OCD?

Hello, I'm a 20 years old male suffering from OCD for about 8 years now. It started as obsessive thoughts about death of my relatives and the urge to do some weird rituals to prevent that, but my OCD evolved alot from that time and for the past several years it's all about the fear of contamination.

I'm really afraid of human secretions such as urine, feces or semen. It's not about the fear of germs or diseases, I'm afraid that these things will get on my body or my clothes and I will stink and that no normal person would accept that. I only pee sitting down to prevent urine from splashing on my clothes or the floor and afterwards I always check my butt cheeks and legs to make sure there's no urine from splashing on areas that wont be covered by my underwear. I also "milk" my penis after I pee to make sure there's no urine left in my urethra which would leak into my underwear. After that, without touching my clothes, I go right to the sink and wash my hands multiple times with lots of soap.

Also it takes almost an hour for me to get a shower every day because I can't convince myself that I'm clean enough. After washing my genitals I sniff my hands to make sure they're not stinky, but I usually feel like there's still some smell remaining and then I repeat this procedure dozens of times until I can convince myself that I'm clean or until my skin starts to hurt really bad. It can take up to 30 minutes to only get my genitals clean, I can easily use an entire bar of soap just to get a shower in the morning before going out. But even after going out of the bathroom I'm still uncertain about the fact that I'm clean and I start to sniff my hands fearing that there may be some dirt remaining on them.

It also drives me crazy if my clothes or my stuff gets in contact with something that can be dirty (especially human secretions), I just can't stop thinking about it, I can't stop fearing that they're dirty now.

The problem is, I don't know whether it's normal or not, I understand that nobody would spend so much time cleaning themselves or caring that much about cleanliness like I do, but on the other hand I know that it's important to keep yourself clean and tidy and it's okay to care about that, so it's really hard for me to decide whether I'm just a normal clean person or I'm having an OCD behavior and I need to seek help.

Sorry for my english and the long post.

Your English is fine and don't worry about the length of the post.

It is quite normal to be "clean and tidy", even to some excess. What is problematic is the "worry" and the excess created from that worry.

Have you ever been treated for OCD? There are many ways to approach Contamination OCD, as it is fairly common. A quick search on the internet will give you an array of choices.

Otter.

Otter, thanks alot for your answer, I guess I will try a CBT.