Masturbation triggers my intrusive thoughts

Is there absolutely any way to stop masturbating? It seems whenever I masturbate random intrusive thoughts pop up into my head & just makes me feel disgusted. They could be gay thoughts, random thoughts about family members that pop into my mind, or some other thing that bothers me alot. I just don't see how it's possible though to stop masturbating since it's a natural thing to do. But how do I not do it when I get the urge to? Especially without having a girlfriend or anything. It's like if I try to stop, than it'll just make me want to do it even more due to constantly thinking about not doing it again. It's like I'm in a damned if I do, damned if I don't situation.

I understand what you're going through. This too, has happened to me. I used to think it was just me being stupid, and I knew my boyfriend would be mad at me for it if I thought about someone else.

This is personal, but many times I've had these thoughts while having sex with my boyfriend. I've thought about my ex boyfriend, women (I am straight), my old manager, co-workers. Even people my boyfriend hates. And it was intrusive and I couldn't stop thinking about them. I even pictured myself doing sexual deeds to these people and it made me feel so awful and disturbed because I didn't want these thoughts in my head.

Just remember, these are thoughts. You're doing it because you try so hard not to think about 'em, when that triggers you to do it more. If someone tells you not to think about a white elephant, you're going to picture it. No matter how hard you try not to. The reason it is so hard to push these thoughts, is that your brain marks 'em as important, which triggers your body to go into like a protective mode, thus causing anxiety!

Also, don't be ashamed of masturbation. It is completely and utterly normal for someone to do and EVERYONE does it. Literally everyone. Even people who are dating someone, they masturbate.

Something I learned is letting the thoughts be there. Don't push them out. Let them be there, show them you aren't bothered by them because it doesn't reflect who you are. You're disturbed by these thoughts, which means you're human and you would never want to think about these people like that, which is a good thing!

The more you try to push them away, the more you actually think about them thus giving 'em power.

Hope this makes you feel better.

fireworkeyes

Thanks for the reply. I just masturbated again to porn before, and it was pretty awkward because I kept thinking my Dad was going to open my bedroom door since he was upstairs lol. But of course as I was watching it, intrusive thoughts invaded my mind again. I think I'm going to try to stop watching porn at least & just try to masturbate to just pictures instead. I was masturbating to muscle women since I wanted to do it to something different & thoughts invaded my mind thinking what if it was a man. I just sometimes wish I had no libido at all so I wouldn't have to masturbate anymore. But on the flip side of that is if I ever eventually get a girlfriend, there would obviously be problems with my sex life if I can't orgasm.