OCD and vengeance.

my internet friend insulting me , it's just on internet.
but im angry so long times . what happend it's OCD?
it's a internet , i know . it is okay to angry and sad.
i try to forgot .
but i remember and angry angry angry. i want revenge.
iI trust everyone in the world.
I have personality as a child.
people always let me down.

Do you have a diagnosis of PTSD?? I know I do and that is when I get this way. Not even just online, in real life. I know it is common in cluster B PD's too. Or are these the uncomfortable thoughts??? I don't have OCD but when I have manic episodes I have those issues.

spemat31 wrote:Do you have a diagnosis of PTSD?? I know I do and that is when I get this way. Not even just online, in real life. I know it is common in cluster B PD's too. Or are these the uncomfortable thoughts??? I don't have OCD but when I have manic episodes I have those issues.

I do not know. I have never been diagnosed by a specialist.
but I have an extreme fear of time. I'm afraid I'll get a mental illness because I had violated some local customs. I dropped belongings into the river. where there are few deaths. everyone says I will be referring. I am very scared.
and when I had it in my head thoughts
"If you sit down to 5 times, the devil will not hurt you"
and I do not know since when I was washing hands several times to feel safe.
then was afraid to hurt or offend others.
and my brain never stops thinking.
and to phase I offended, I always silent, I'm not arguing, I'm not good at arguing and debating.

I always have strange personalities.
I always carefree like a child
I trust everyone. I think they will not be upset with me
I would love to do something funny.
and i laugh so much
Although I've grown.

culminating pinched my work. in dojo
im student. and performer

he is guides in dojo "not master"
and that is a bastard. He insulted me in front of everyone.
I started to hate him and did not do what he says.
but I always get 4 a silver medal.

he say "if you do as I say. you have received a gold medal"
That is funny.
because he only received a bronze medal and a silver medal.
forget some movements while performingand
. lost to a woman. lol

he always sarcasm and trying to find my mistake .

him always tell boss if someone do something he does not like and a little disadvantage to him

but when he made a mistake >>> nothing happened to him.
look like i always made mistake in work


culminating make me ashamed in front of all people . but I can not argue. I'm not good at arguing or something I do not know.
I pinched the job and left the dojo

I was really angry. I want revenge and make things really horrible with him family. but I did not do.
Now I always hate, sad. and to avenge the people insult me. even the small things.

now I feel incredibly low self-esteem and always angry.

i don't know i have stress or something in before or not.
but i feel want revenge all people insulting me. even internet.
something i want forgot . but i remember and angry angry. so angry.

now i have HOCD and OCD thought.

"That is not mistakes," I just not doing like him. but it has been accepted in the Championship and I've won.
this is reason makes my crazy . please help.

now my ocd say people here think me is gossip because this post . damn
do you think me is stupid gossip?
im not.