Come Out As Trans + Now I Have PAEDOPHILE & INCEST THOUGHTS

I have a transgender sense of self, I can't go through losing my sense of self again. It completely destroyed me last time.

Also not all transgender/transsexual people experience dysphoria and not all of them knew when they were young. People can find out as adults.

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For a long time I thought I had OCD about being transgender but then I realised I was transgender. Now I am having intrusive images of incest and paedophilia and this is scarily similar to my transsexuality (the way the thoughts presents themselves)

I feel really distressed and anxious when I have them but I just let them sit there. The say the way to know if it is OCD or not is whether you enjoy the thoughts but I don't know if I enjoy them or not. They cause me a lot of distress but maybe I secretly enjoy them. Also when I masturbated today images of children came into my head and freaked me out.

I can't cope, I dunno what to do. Everything is falling apart, cant cope, dunno what to do HEEEEEEEEEEEELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLP

What do you want us to do? Find an ERP therapist and get help, posting is clearly not helping.

RD900 wrote:What do you want us to do? Find an ERP therapist and get help, posting is clearly not helping.

I don't know what to do.

I am transgender, I had thoughts in my head saying "I am a woman" and "I am transgender" and now I am comfortable being trans.

Now I have thoughts in my head saying "I am a paedophile" and "I want to touch kids" and it is scary having these thoughts.

There is a striking similarity between these thoughts and my transgender thoughts and it scares me.

Also I get images in my head. For example I look at my sister and get thoughts of her being fingered. When I was watching my nephew's xmas show I had lots of paedo thoughts that were horrible.

I am finding it hard to cope.

I kinda doubt youre trans, accepting any ocd thought might make you comfortable with it cause the anxiety is gone. But the doubt or feeling lingers.. Ocd can feel insanely real even after the anxiety is gone (which often spikes new anxiety) would you be comfortable being male too? What are you really?

When I woke up today I felt anxiety but I don't have traditional spikes, I don't think ""what if I'm Trans" or "omg I am Trans" I have accepted it and I am coming to peace with it.

I am a woman

-- Wed Dec 17, 2014 8:29 am --

I feel a bit of anxiety after saying that but that is to be expected

FreshGuy wrote:When I woke up today I felt anxiety but I don't have traditional spikes, I don't think ""what if I'm Trans" or "omg I am Trans" I have accepted it and I am coming to peace with it.

I am a woman

-- Wed Dec 17, 2014 8:29 am --

I feel a bit of anxiety after saying that but that is to be expected

Jesus, stop spamming up the boards. To have OCD you must have compulsions. Answer this question.
Do you have compulsions you perform to relieve anxiety? Or do you just have the thoughts? It's impossible to just have the thoughts and have OCD.

FreshGuy wrote:When I woke up today I felt anxiety but I don't have traditional spikes, I don't think ""what if I'm Trans" or "omg I am Trans" I have accepted it and I am coming to peace with it.

I am a woman

-- Wed Dec 17, 2014 8:29 am --

I feel a bit of anxiety after saying that but that is to be expected

Trans people arent anxious about being trans, they dont have to accept it theyre relieved to have figured out whats been bothering them all these years. This is exactly what im saying you accepted it and the anxiety is gone but the feeling isnt, your ocd totally convinced you!

RD900 wrote:

FreshGuy wrote:When I woke up today I felt anxiety but I don't have traditional spikes, I don't think ""what if I'm Trans" or "omg I am Trans" I have accepted it and I am coming to peace with it.

I am a woman

-- Wed Dec 17, 2014 8:29 am --

I feel a bit of anxiety after saying that but that is to be expected

Jesus, stop spamming up the boards. To have OCD you must have compulsions. Answer this question.
Do you have compulsions you perform to relieve anxiety? Or do you just have the thoughts? It's impossible to just have the thoughts and have OCD.

I dunno if I have compulsions, I don't count or think that if I do an action it will make me not be trans.

I think I just have thoughts but I was diagnosed with OCD.

I did use to do checking and stuff and searching online but maybe people who are trans do that.

Also I want to be a woman and I like painting my nails (TRANS)

-- Wed Dec 17, 2014 11:02 pm --

Wellthen wrote:

FreshGuy wrote:When I woke up today I felt anxiety but I don't have traditional spikes, I don't think ""what if I'm Trans" or "omg I am Trans" I have accepted it and I am coming to peace with it.

I am a woman

-- Wed Dec 17, 2014 8:29 am --

I feel a bit of anxiety after saying that but that is to be expected

Trans people arent anxious about being trans, they dont have to accept it theyre relieved to have figured out whats been bothering them all these years. This is exactly what im saying you accepted it and the anxiety is gone but the feeling isnt, your ocd totally convinced you!

Oh in that case it is kinda the reverse of what I have went through.

Also when I was at my niece's xmas show I kepthaving thoughts about the kids being attractive and having sex with them but I just let the thoughts sit there and tried not to respond.

You're very strict to yourself if you think that you're trans just because you liked being dressed as a woman