Feel less feminine from HOCD/TOCD?

I suffered from TOCD and had a 'girl' phase from 12-17. I was very androgynous and you couldn't really tell if I was male or female. I know how hard OCD can be, you think of the worst possible outcome when you suffer from anxiety. It does get better if you do ERP, I can laugh at all my thoughts that I had and realize how illogical it was.

Hit me by watching some vid about a guy who came home from being a navy seal or from the army, and went from man to woman.. and during that time I was just getting over HOCD, and then my mind said "what if that's why you were dealing with HOCD" and then the new obsession of TOCD came.

That's weird. It seems like for us when TOCD came along we dealt with Hocd for a while. That goes to show you that it's ocd because the theme changed. At least I hope mine is ocd. Lol.

yeah ive been dealing with HOCD (I think, I really hope so) since May. I didnt really know there could be "guys actually in a girls body" or vice versa until recently. Which is when it started. Now I dont feel right in my body. I dont think im a guy though, there are a lot of feminine qualities about me that I like. Now I doubt my own gender. I really think its worse than HOCD, but I have a mix of TOCD and HOCD and I feel theres no way out. I think im just going to do my best to stay off these forums for a while.

Hey everyone, I'm glad I found this post because I can totally relate to this. My Tocd also began after I had been dealing with Hocd for awhile. Now it seems like the two are best friends and have sort of ganged up on me haha. I went through a tomboy phase too when I was in elementary school and that pretty much has my convinced that I may be trans/gay. A lot of the clothes I use to wear and thought were cute I now find horrible because they're not "feminine" enough. I have also become insecure about my body and I find that I compare myself to my friends or random girls to see if I think I look like them, which my hocd then uses to tell me I was checking them out. I am and always have been perfectly happy being a girl but now my mind seems to tell me otherwise.

I thought I had TOCD for 2 years then I discovered I was actually trans, I have come out now.

I still feel really stressed and confused, now I have started having intrusive thoughts and images of incest and paedophilia

Also the thoughts present themselves similar to the way my transsexuality did when i first started to have it.

I just dunno what to do. I guess I need to just let the thoughts sit there but it is tough because thisis how my transgenderism started so I am scared that my incest and paedophilia is real too.

I guess I will just let the thoughts sit there.

When I was writing Christmas present tags, I wrote Uncle and I thought about writing Aunty.

FreshGuy wrote:I thought I had TOCD for 2 years then I discovered I was actually trans, I have come out now.

I still feel really stressed and confused, now I have started having intrusive thoughts and images of incest and paedophilia

Also the thoughts present themselves similar to the way my transsexuality did when i first started to have it.

I just dunno what to do. I guess I need to just let the thoughts sit there but it is tough because thisis how my transgenderism started so I am scared that my incest and paedophilia is real too.

I guess I will just let the thoughts sit there.

When I was writing Christmas present tags, I wrote Uncle and I thought about writing Aunty.

You do understand this is most definitely OCD, right??? I read your posts and you seem OCD like everyone else struggling

snowbud wrote:Hey everyone, I'm glad I found this post because I can totally relate to this. My Tocd also began after I had been dealing with Hocd for awhile. Now it seems like the two are best friends and have sort of ganged up on me haha. I went through a tomboy phase too when I was in elementary school and that pretty much has my convinced that I may be trans/gay. A lot of the clothes I use to wear and thought were cute I now find horrible because they're not "feminine" enough. I have also become insecure about my body and I find that I compare myself to my friends or random girls to see if I think I look like them, which my hocd then uses to tell me I was checking them out. I am and always have been perfectly happy being a girl but now my mind seems to tell me otherwise.

Sounds exactly like me! Crazy haha. Makes me feel less alone

FreshGuy wrote:I thought I had TOCD for 2 years then I discovered I was actually trans, I have come out now.

I still feel really stressed and confused, now I have started having intrusive thoughts and images of incest and paedophilia

Also the thoughts present themselves similar to the way my transsexuality did when i first started to have it.

I just dunno what to do. I guess I need to just let the thoughts sit there but it is tough because thisis how my transgenderism started so I am scared that my incest and paedophilia is real too.

I guess I will just let the thoughts sit there.

When I was writing Christmas present tags, I wrote Uncle and I thought about writing Aunty.

says he came out as Trans because of TOCD, compusively posts on TOCD threads on an "OCD" forum, now suffers from NEW obsessions ......

You can't really be that foolish right?
Many people who have suffered severe OCD have acted out there obsessions in order to "CHECK" over and OVER and OVER again , only to accumulate more anxiety and MORE uncertainty.
When I had HOCD I was pretty sure I turned gay , and was gay .. but it wasn't the case.. and I realized this after I stopped going on websites and stopped checking, and stopped with the reassurance.
I just LIVED MY LIFE (not infront of a computer/phone) looking for certainty , resulting in more anxiety and more need for certainty.
You're fueling your obsession..... stop it.

stop going on here to check.. stop going on sites in general to check, just stop looking for certainty.. I get it.. you get really scared and anxious and you need an answer.... but the answer should be naturally within yourself and be NATURAL if you were truly a woman. It would be a relief to say you're a woman , not riddled with anxiety.
I better not see you post in TOCD threads again talking about your "gender issue" because it's clear that it's OCD, but at the same time you're trying to convince people otherwise for a sense of validation.
WRONG PLACE TO DO IT. You're triggering the hell out of people.

-- Tue Dec 23, 2014 7:56 pm --

worriedgirl103 wrote:

FreshGuy wrote:I thought I had TOCD for 2 years then I discovered I was actually trans, I have come out now.

I still feel really stressed and confused, now I have started having intrusive thoughts and images of incest and paedophilia

Also the thoughts present themselves similar to the way my transsexuality did when i first started to have it.

I just dunno what to do. I guess I need to just let the thoughts sit there but it is tough because thisis how my transgenderism started so I am scared that my incest and paedophilia is real too.

I guess I will just let the thoughts sit there.

When I was writing Christmas present tags, I wrote Uncle and I thought about writing Aunty.

You do understand this is most definitely OCD, right??? I read your posts and you seem OCD like everyone else struggling

Thought about or CHECKED? haha... if a thought comes agree with it.. thoughts are not based in reality.. We have all seen you post on here.. and in other forums as well with this same issue . Trans people have said you're not trans, OCD people have confirmed that you're OCD.. just because you wore a dress at some point or a few times.. doesn't make you a WOMAN.
I'm suffering from TOCD myself and if I wore a dress it wouldn't confirm anything..it's a piece of material .. women wear pants, play sports, work, drive, do masculine things without becoming confused about it. Just as there are men who wear dress, care about their looks , go shopping, clean , etc, without confusing themselves into being a woman .. you give really weak arguments to be TRANS it's way too clear what you actually suffer from.
So go outside, get a job, keep yourself busy and around people that matter... stop going on here, stop searching the web for answers.. THERE ARE NONE , there is therapy and guidelines to use said therapy.. but if you don't want that.. then do something else.. because 2 years of this hasn't done anything but made you even more severe.