
I'm not certain yet if this is OCD/anxiety related but it would make sense so I really am sorry if I've posted this in the wrong forum.
For quite a while now I've been terrified of getting fat. I don't exactly stop eating certain things, I just have these massive mental debates with myself beforehand, like "But what if you get fat if you eat that Pot Noodle you ate a Pot Noodle a few weeks ago you don't need another one what if you get addicted to unhealthy, calorie-filled foods like that and end up fat".
And so then I have to ask my parents or my friends or whoever's around "I'm not going to get fat if I eat this, am I?" or "It's okay if I eat this, isn't it?" And then once I've eaten said food, I have to go for a walk down to the shops or something, even if it's only a trip down to the corner shop and back, just to reassure myself that I've had at least a little bit of exercise that day. But even then I can't really stop worrying about it.
If I want a day to relax in my pyjamas or just stay inside all day, the same thing happens; "You're going to end up as this fat recluse who just stays inside all day and everybody will find you disgusting and judge you".
I can't touch overweight people or follow them in to a class or whatever at school, and if I do touch them I have to wash my hands or wipe them across something else to feel better again...it makes me feel like a terrible person for doing that because it's not in any way bad to be overweight, but I still have to do it.