Will the doubt go away?

Hey, the last time I posted in this forum I was 18 and a girl talking about how I had POCD but less anxiety than before but still this awful doubt of just not being sure.

I'm 19, by now I have been officially diagnosed with OCD and panic disorder, my psychologist didnt know of Pure-O, but I already know it wasnt well known. He doesnt know about the fear I have, I just told him I have these panic attack and told him one of my lesser fears because he's not a therapist. Hes prescribed me antidepressiants I have not been talking them long enough for them to help, but I think side effects are kicking in

These last few days its like me pocd completely revived, I was never completely gone, and I will almost have it for a year now. anxiety is back, but when im calm, im still doubting! It's the worst, I just cant see if im a pedo in denial or just a sick girl. one minute it feels like it isnt, im sure i like men, but then the other minute it just feels like i am, indeed, what i fear to be, as if its crystal clear that second, it feels so real and it sends my straight into a panic attack. I'm hoping these antidepressiant will work, and Im thinking of requesting a therapist when they do.

But I wonder, the anxiety may fade, but will the doubt ever go away? Has it with anybody? Im fine with ocd but can Pure-O completely go away with medication and therapy? I'm so scared I cant live with this doubt, it's draining all my energy

I don't want to just answer "you'll be fine" and let it go at that. First let me say, I have had severe OCD. At times Pure-O, sometimes just compulsions and many times, both.

The kind of doubt you are talking about can go away by various means (therapy, meds, or other things). I have had a million of them and with meds and self discipline, that kind of doubt has gone away.

To help you NOW, try and believe that changes will come when the meds take affect. Try and tell your brain to "put things on hold". We know you're not going to do anything because you're not a child molester. So nothing is going to happen in the real world. You just need to try and slow down your brain for now, so you don't suffer so much.

And just so you know, it took me trying one or two different kinds of anti-anxiety meds before one kicked in, so don't get discouraged if what you're taking doesn't help enough. And give it time.

But YES, the doubt can go. And I have had severe doubt - the kind I thought I would never come out of. But it is gone now.

Otter.

Thanks for your reply! I'm glad to hear I don't have to live with it all my life. I know it's gonna be hard, it's already been hard and I'm prepared for that. But I'm gonna give it all I've got! Thankyou