Sexual/Aggressive Intrusive Thoughts that WON'T Stop.

Intrusive thoughts that will go around and around in my head. I've had thousands and they just won't go away.

They're completely weird. I wouldn't say that they're as upsetting to me as I would say that they are humiliating, embarrassing and deflating of the experience I may be trying to enjoy.

1) One is that the other day I was riding my bike and another person was riding next to me. I thought the gears going around in the back of the other persons bike were pretty intense and then I pictured myself throwing my penis in the mix of gears and picturing my penis getting shredded to bits amongst all the gears. And then my mind jumped to what if the bike rode up between a girls legs and pictured the damage it would do to her vaginal area. Then I kept having the thought(s) over and over in my mind, taking away from the enjoyment of going on a simple bike ride.

2) Then in worrying about thought #1, I had the thought that I wished I was more forward with my thoughts 15 years ago when I was in counseling, and if I was maybe I wouldn't be in the state that I'm in now. Then I pictured myself talking to my Psychologist and then him ejaculating all over me and then pictured myself running down the street to go to Best Buy covered in sperm, almost like a sperm ghost like you might see in Scooby Doo. The thoughts just then multiply. From this point it jumped to my chest being pregnant from the sperm and shooting miniature babies out from my nipples like machine gun fire.

The thoughts themselves are just ridiculous, and it bothers me that I would even think of them.

I'm fairly certain no one out there has had these exact thoughts, but I wanted to see if anyone had any kind of violent, sexual or repugnant thoughts that
1) Won't go away.
2) Just rapidly multiply into ridiculous thoughts.

Any exercises or tips that may have helped you deal with these intrusive thoughts?

Any medications that may have helped?

Thanks,

I'd say carry on biking, if it makes you feel uncomfortable in regards to your OCD then go for it. Maybe get your junk out near you bike in a private space and make the chain go round if that hits your anxiety worse (obviously do not physically damage yourself with the chain, just exacerbate your anxiety, I'm not a doctor so do not take my words as gospel by any means).

In regards to ridiculous thoughts, it's probably you trying to diffuse the initial thought through humour. I have harm OCD and commonly joke about it with people close to me, it's normal.

Thanks for the reply. I haven't heard of the "diffusing" of the original thought before, but it makes sense. Thanks, I'll have to look into it more.