Uhh… looking for people like me?

I don't even know if that's why I'm making this post. I guess I want to talk to some people that understand what I'm going through or what I have/am? I don't know. I know I've been like this my entire life but it never affected my ability to function until 3 years ago, I always assumed OCD was only people who had extreme physical compulsions. I have minimal physical compulsions like blinking and even that is rare. But anyway, In 2011 I got into a bunch of car accidents, got married, moved out of state, quit smoking and got pregnant with my second child. a little much for someone I suppose because my anxiety went through the roof, I become depressed, I had horrible mood swings and ect. The OCD got really bad and the anxiety was greatly affecting my life so I sought out a psychiatrist. He diagnosed me with acute agoraphobia and put me on lexapro. At the time I had extreme hesitation to ever be on medication, I was on it for a month and felt better and thought I could fix all the rest by myself so I came off it. Very long story short, I couldn't fix crap by myself, everything got worse and I realized I needed professional help getting back to myself again (if that's even possible at this point) and that I needed medication. Apparently the realization wasn't soon enough because my husband is now divorcing me because he said all the anxiety and OCD and Depression is just too much to handle. I'm kind of numb to that at the moment. But anyway I saw a new psychiatrist yesterday, He says that my OCD is my main focus for right now, that stress and PTSD are what have caused the anxiety to worsen and the depression and that in turn those are all making my OCD worse. So he prescribed me something called Luvox and I will be doing therapy to work on the PTSD and stress. I can't start it until next week when I'm done working 3rd shift. Hopefully that puts me on the right path to rebuilding a better new life. So yeah, Hi. I'm 25, mother of 3, in school for welding and I have OCD. I'm looking for some new friends and people that can relate and understand what its like to live a day like me. Because umm, family doesn't really understand… they think OCD stands for obsessive cleaning disorder and to give my friends a better understanding of what it actually is I would have to explain what its like to be inside me head and I'm just not comfortable doing that right now.

hi Miroku... i'm sorry you're going through all of this. but you're not alone.

Miroku12345678 wrote:Because umm, family doesn't really understand… they think OCD stands for obsessive cleaning disorder and to give my friends a better understanding of what it actually is I would have to explain what its like to be inside me head and I'm just not comfortable doing that right now.

i understand how you feel, 3 weeks ago one of my friends was laughing and then she said ''i think i have OCD''. i asked why? she replied ''because 1. sometimes i dont like it when ppl touch my stuff 2. i like cleaning my room when i'm in the good mood (something like that) and i was speechless.

in fact, not only OCD. but it seems like all types of mental disorders r being misunderstood.

i am glad you've sought professional help. when things are really bad, make sure you get a hold of your doctor. i'm sorry i can't be of much help, but i really hope everything goes well and you find some help on this forum. good luck