POCD killing me please help

I think I have pocd, or at least hope it is, and it's been restricting me from fully enjoying life. The thoughts first popped in my head when I saw a toddlers butt, I felt a tingling, possibly a groinal response and wondered " do I like that?", and ever since I've been overthinking about the past to try and figure out if I had these feelings in the past, looking in forums constantly to see if others felt like this (first time actually posting), and checking to see if I am attracted or not. I've been feeling aweful for weeks, I have always been attracted to girls my own age, and this has only been a problem recently. I just can't figure out why I felt a groin all response before the pocd started, and it's been killing me, if I was a real predator, I would kill myself.

Today is the first day I cried over this, it is making me seriously depressed, I've been OCD about things in the past, like body disphormic disorder, and hocd when I was 13, I am 17 now, and this is the worst thing I have ever felt

I thought I was the only person that this happen to .

Having those feelings started the pocd, and I can't figure out why I got a groinal response before, and I can't put my mind at ease about it, could it have made my body think of sex, even though I mentally didn't like it? I'm not sure, I keep over analyzing everything

I've battled and overcame POCD. The good news is it can be done. The bad news is that it is a lengthy process that requires you to be willing to do some difficult work and eventually wean yourself out of needing to look at children to make sure you don't find them attractive.

I'm willing to help you with this, but first thing is first. There is a difference between a pedophile and a predator, and the second one is worse. Before you can convince yourself you aren't a pedophile, you need to convince yourself you're not a predator.

Consider the following questions...

Do you want to date a young child, such as under 11 years old?
Do you feel a need to groom and go after pre-pubescent children for sex?
Have you ever felt something is missing from your sex life because you can't have sex with a young child?

If you answered no for all of these questions, think about it for about an hour or two, and when you're ready, reply about what you think a predator is and why you are or aren't worried about being a predator, and then depending on your response, I'll decide how to help you with the next step.

This is just POCD. Your post is a facsimile of hundreds of other posts by POCD sufferers. It really is that generic and identical to everyone else's POCD post.
Don't worry. I dealt with HOCD, POCD, Harm OCD, etc, and each time it caught me by surprise, but with POCD being the most recent attempted start-up, understanding the OCD like I do, I was able to beat it off before it took hold. That was four months ago at least. Once you understand the OCD and what tricks it will try next, it's hard for it to harm you.

Thanks for the replies, I feel a lot better just by having some, I was scared I wasn't going to get any. Jack, I answered no to all your questions, when I really think about it, even if I was a pedophile, I wouldn't be a predator, I think the real fear I have is not being able to accept the attraction if I had it, it's hard to put into words, but the thought of having the attraction makes me feel sick to my stomach, and not at peace with myself, like I can't live normally.

Okay, here's the next step.

You said you've felt a tingling in you groin that was unwanted.

Can you describe the difference between that and the full erection and arousal you get after seeing a woman you find very attractive or thinking of a fantasy you desire?

Also, can you recall a moment of either excitement, stress, or anxiety which gave you jitters up and down your body including the groin area when it was not related to sex at all? For example, I recall certain frustration of not being able to solve a code, a puzzle, figure out the answer to a problem and my sensory would overload and I would grab or rub my private area because of tingling.

Real arousal to me feels like a blood rush, then the unwanted responses which feel like tingling, I can't recall other times I felt this response unless it was some sexual feeling or fear, but I still can't seem to figure out why I felt this before the pocd kicked in, which really scares me

I also have an issue with thinking I'm attracted, but I go over it in my head trying to find reasons why I'm not attracted, and I repeat the same process of convincing myself I'm not, and even if I come up with conclusions, I still doubt myself