Is this POCD?

I'm 24 and gay. Also a virgin. I have always been attracted to men my age and older. Now I feel like lost my attraction to men and now attracted to teens. When I "came out' 2 years ago, I went through a depression. I started using porn (legal) a lot. But in the last 8 months I had the fear of being a pedophile. This fear came up one night when I was watching to catch a predator. Then I stumbled on a movie on youtube that had a scene with a kid getting naked. I didn't think of it much at first until about a month later when I was thinking hard and began testing. This intrusive thought came into my head and I felt as I was a pedophile because I masturbate to everything. Being gay, I always heard the stereotypes that we are pedophiles and this sort of fueled my fears. I began testing myself by looking at and comparing images of children and adults. It always leaves me confused and I never get an answer. Its a repetitive thing that has been going on and I can't stop the impulse to check because its not a conscious decision. Whenever this thought of being a pedophile comes in my head, I start checking. I never get relief and I don't know what to do to get it. I feel like I lost my attraction to adults and gained a new attraction to kids. This anxiety drives me to do things I would never do like looking at images and comparing them to see if I am a pedo. I remember I was afraid to go near kids when this whole thing started. I am still afraid. I feel like i'm attracted to them. I always dreamed of getting married with a guy and having kids. I'm depressed and I can't remember the last time I laughed. I am going to a psychiatrist but he doesn't help much. I am now seeing a new therapist. I feel like all the stress changed my attractions from men to children. This checking is repetitive and I don't know how to stop it. Its weird but I feel like I lost the ability to tell people apart by their age. Is this fake attraction? Am I a pedophile. I would do anything to get back to normal.

We can't diagnose, so I can't tell you if you have POCD or not. There is no relationship between being Gay and being a Pedophile. People who say that are homophobic or misinformed.

Stop checking, it is only going to make it worse. Get with a doctor who can diagnose you and treat your issues.

Otter.

Okay.

Does this sound like ocd? I don't feel any peace. I feel broken.

So much of what you have written points towards OCD. The constant checking in response to anxiety. Then when you check whilst feeling so anxious your thoughts are clouded and you never come away with the definite conclusion that you want. I experience very similar moments all the time and can relate to what you are saying. Its not called the doubting disease for nothing!