Possible HOCD? Help!

Hey there, i'm new to this forum and I wanted to talk about my recent problem.

It all began one night when I was 21 years old, I was sleeping in my bedroom when suddenly a voice began asking me: what if you're gay? etc. and it drove me nuts, couldn't sleep the whole night! I was in the middle of a depressing moment in my life (was actually failling at uni,etc). After that day I began with this symtomps: constant checking and constant doubts about oneself,the so called ritual , the thoughts that would never stop,etc.I always liked girls, I was actually pursuing a girl from university, which confuses me a little.


It lasted about a year, then the thoughts stopped, when I stopped masturbating and started focusing in my subjects, eventually acing them. Problem is, this problem reappeared a while ago(which weirdly started after masturbating a lot again), and it got a lot worse, I started getting anxious about the thought that I could like men, and what would my parents do if they found this out. I also had problems sleeping.

i don't know if this could help, but i used to masturbate a lot when i was young, a really whole lot, like 15 times per week (no lying).

Can't diagnose but yeah if I could, HOCD. Sent you a private message.