Pure O/ HOCD, help!

Hi, i'm 19 year old guy. I've been battling HOCD/ pure o, for quite some time, and it's so tiring. I've had a lot of problems with pornography(addiction) which even made me question many of my sexual desires. That is the root of my problem. Should i seek help? The obsessions are incredibly strong nowadays.. It seems that I'm on such a streak of bad luck, in sense that i'm obsessing about new and new thoughts, and they just keep coming on, i just want them all to stop. I've had enough with this illness. They're always about socially unacceptable situations.. How to stop watching porn? Are antidepressants going to work if my shrink adds them? PLease help, i'm desperate!

Hi klontar,

My advice to overcome pornography addiction is to use medical terminology for parts of the anatomy (e.g. mammary glands), make donations to a rape crisis charity like RAINN, and abstain for one day a month on the Full Moon.

Regards / dhammapal.

Hello klontar,
First I'm sorry to hear about the situation your in. HOCD is terrible and can make you do and think insane stuff. I too suffer from HOCD so I know how it feels. The thing you have to remember is that if the thought of having a heterosexual relationship makes you 100% happy then your not gay. If you were truly gay you wouldn't feel any romantic attraction towards women. As for your porn addiction, I'm assuming you probably have looked at all different types of porn including guy on guy. I'm also assuming that you've probably, at some point, felt worried that it may have turned you on or that you might have liked it. Well funny thing is, ANY type of sex has the potential to turn ANYONE on. As humans are brains are programmed to enjoy sex, and because of this ALL sex has the potential to make a person horny. Another thing to note is that what you find sexually attractive is not a good indicator of your sexuality. Confusing I know, but stay with me here. Fake rape and incest are two of the most popular types of porn. Now that being said I doubt anyone who enjoys watching those supports rape or incest. Applying this to a person with HOCD means simply that even if they can get turned on by gay porn it doesn't matter, they're not gay. So if that's the case why can they get off to it? Simple. IT'S SEX!!! Like I said earlier ANY type of sex can turn ANYONE on. You need to be focusing on what can turn you on romantically. Personally I can look at another girl (I'm a girl ) and think that she's attractive but I would never want to date her because I could never see myself romantically involved with another woman. Any gay person will tell you that it is possible for them to find members of the opposite sex attractive but they would also tell you they'd never date them because there are no romantic feelings there. As for you question about how to quit porn I can't really say anything else than just try and give it up cold turkey. I know that's going to be difficult but you have to try.
Here's a link to a post I found very helpful: http://jackieleasommers.com/2013/06/30/ ... k-at-hocd/
Hope you get better!
-snowbud

Hi, I've been there with HOCD. Terrible stuff.

DO NOT KEEP ASKING FOR REASSURANCE OR TRYING TO PROVE THE OCD WRONG!!!
There is no answer it will ever accept as good enough! It's not about truth, it's about fear.
Reassurance gives you 20 seconds of relief for a day of agony. Reassurance trains your brain to keep worrying about that thought, because it legitimizes it!

This is the advice that gave me my life back. Follow it precisely, and you will get it back too.
Warning: Even if it comes up with some horrible fear that's just really horrific, you need to keep to the advice and dismiss the thought, or 'accept' it without accepting what the thought implies. Don't acknowledge the thought itself, acknowledge that the thought exists, and that you aren't going to worry about <insert horrific thought or idea here>.

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Thanks for replying folks!
When I was on my porn watching rampage I was just 14/15 years old and I actually didn't even think about the stuff i was watching, and believe me, there was a lot of crazy stuff. It was also escalating, i didn't use to watch extreme porn at first, that came on later. I would later find myself watching shemales/rape/incest.. And that left a pretty big scar on me. There were also other obsessions, as like 'do i like the look of the penis?' which also was extremely destructive.
I identify as a heterosexual male, never thought of a guy in a sexual way. Also, I know a lot of people who don't really care about stuff like this, e.g they don't obsess about any of this stuff, and they regularly watch it. I wish i was in that mental state, my life would be so much better...
Also, do you think if my shrink prescribes antidepressants i would feel better? Because, frankly, I'm in the worst obsessive state in my life these days. Damn, I never saw it coming..

Yeah, meds can help a lot, but keep in mind they take time to get going. I still recommend you follow the advice above, it can save you from this.

I have to comment here because this thread helped me A LOT today.
Special thanks to Snowbud and Bendib. Really helpful words.
And of course, thanks to klontar_7 for bringing all of this up. I relate almost in everything with you.

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edit: I mean. I hate the things I think i'm enjoying right now. I hate the ocd/pure-o That makes me over-analyze everything. I hate the videos I watched, even thought, when watching, I enjoyed. I hate the fact that i can't get to a conclusion about anything because ocd makes me "blind", "numb"... Incapable of thinking and feeling like I want to.
It's a very very hard disorder. A terrible cocktail of things. Deep down I know i'm not a monster. But i'm feeling like i'm one right now. And I hate it. I wish I could make myself more clear, but my english is very limited