Are these hallucinations?

Hi,

This is my first time posting on the forum. I'm a 19 year old male and I suffer from OCD (Harm OCD and occasional POCD), Anxiety and I experience bouts of derealization/depersonalision. For the last month, I have been plagued with the fear that I will become schizophrenic or just snap and lose my mind after a very bad alcohol-induced panic attack. After a terrible night at A&E (due to an episode where intrusive thoughts about harming my family became so strong that I just couldn't contend with it anymore) I was assigned to a home-help team who visited me daily for three weeks, and it has really benefitted me. Up until now, I've been...okay. But the anxiety and intrusive thoughts still manage to creep into my mind, which has a detrimental impact on my university work and spending time with my loved ones.

Yesterday, I experienced something which still disturbs me as I speak. I looked across my bedroom and it looked as if objects were moving or 'breathing' and as much I thought that the possibility of these objects actually moving was utterly ridiculous, it just provoked more thoughts in my head revolving around the fear of going crazy. This could be due to my vision (I'm short-sighted) but I'm still very much unsure. Also, when I place my hand on a surface, it feels as though something is moving underneath. I told my sister this and she said it was merely my pulse. But when I lie my head on a pillow, it feels as though the pillow is moving my head up and down. As you can see, this only exacerbates my anxiety.

Can anyone explain what this is? Is this just the result of bodily sensations, anxiety or are they the onset of hallucinations? It's concerning me at the moment. Thank you!

Hey Jack,

Are you constantly looking for these hallucinations to happen? That would be OCD-type behavior.
I know severe anxiety can cause all sorts of bodily sensations to occur, but I don't think it can actually make you see or hear things that aren't there.

So the only thing you could go on would be the objects appearing to move, but if that's it, I would wait for further evidence for the schizophrenia. Another thing is you said you drink heavily, and that can cause hallucinations. Speaking from experience, I know alcohol just makes anxiety way worse. I think you should try to minimize the alcohol and see a psych about the anxiety.

youu are looking to see if something is wrong with you, so your pushing to feel it, it's ocd and your own worries. you would not be asking if it was hallucinations if somethings were wrong with you, you'd be asking why have objects now come to life what is the government doing!! so hush you'll be ok just stop worrying yourself so much the fear of going insane after harm ocd is common, and usually followed by a fear of death, or ending ocd, since your brain literally is just fed up with your anxiety $#%^, lol but yeah don't worry you're fine.