POCD(Trigger)

Hey guys, i never thought i would be at this point but i am. it all started when i noticed i had an attraction to my friends 16 year old sister(I'm 21), i thought this had made me a pedophile so naturally i turned to the internet for answers. Turns out that dosn't make me a pedophile by definition but to the rest of the world I'm a freak. this isn't an exclusive attraction nor do i think about her on a daily bases, just a simple attraction that I've completely turned into a fear and obsession. so because i feel like I'm perverted I'm thinking in terms of black and white, "if I'm into a 16 year old whats stopping me from being into a 6 year old?"..... i know that sounds stupid but that is how I'm thinking, i keep having these terrible intrusive thoughts, always testing myself, its the absolute worst in the mornings. sometimes i wake up with an "erection" and my mind automatically associates it with this pedophilia obsession.... i woke up this morning at 5:30 it was so bad..... I'm trying to convince my self that because I'm resisting all of this so much it must mean that I'm not a pedophile.

there is another problem too, I've had a fantasy before involving my own sister, this only happens once in a long while if at all, but i have had them, i don't particularly like them and do not seek out pleasure in my sister or the thoughts but i can't deny that i have thought about my sister before, so with that i have this fear that I'm some sort of deviant and if i can get off to my own sister i must be mentally ill, so therefore whats stopping me from begin a pedophile. I've never worried like this before, i don't seek out CP or get aroused when i see pictures of kids but i have this crazy doubt in my head.

If anyone is willing to talk about this stuff with me please PM me.

Okay, first off, you're not a pedophile. 16 year olds are physically mature.

I'm into 6 year olds. I'm not interested in 16 year olds. They are very different in ways I would think are obvious.

Being attracted to individuals below the age of consent (though depending on your location, 16 might not be below your local age of consent, check your local laws) is not what makes a person a pedophile.

Pedophiles are individuals who are primarily sexually attracted to prepubescent children. A simple rule of thumb: if you like breasts, that's a pretty good sign you aren't a pedophile, and are in no danger of "becoming" one.

Sexual "perversion" isn't some sort of continuum where there's a scale or slippery slope of right and wrong things you can be attracted to with one leading to the next most taboo thing in line. For any individual sexual trigger, you either think it's hot or you don't.

strix123 wrote:
there is another problem too, I've had a fantasy before involving my own sister, this only happens once in a long while if at all, but i have had them, i don't particularly like them and do not seek out pleasure in my sister or the thoughts but i can't deny that i have thought about my sister before, so with that i have this fear that I'm some sort of deviant and if i can get off to my own sister i must be mentally ill, so therefore whats stopping me from begin a pedophile. I've never worried like this before, i don't seek out CP or get aroused when i see pictures of kids but i have this crazy doubt in my head.

I wouldn't say you are mentally ill because you get off to your sister, you'r into incest, you'r not crasy or something...
Yes incest is a paraphilia, but it's not a desise... it's a condition...
If you think you must be mentally ill by that thought, what should i feel considering i had the same thought with my own mother?
There is nothing stopping you from being a pedophile as much as there is nothing making you be it, as you say, you don't seek out CP or get aroused when you see pics of kids, why is there doubt anyway?
And i second Radical, 16 is not a child, even less when nowadays girls develop earlyer and earlyer.
As for me, im into 7 to 12 year olds, in my mind, 16 is just way too old

I am moving this thread as it pertains to POCD which is more appropriate to post about in the OCD forum. I am leaving a shadow here so you will find your thread and so that others in the Paraphilias forum can choose to reply if they want to.