Unwanted intruisive arousals? studies prove they aren't real

You know i have been thinking that since we cant focus on what we would really want to get off to, we have to divert our attention back to a more universal level and just think about "sex" itself and not much in particular.. thats how jacking off might work to "anything".. since we cant focus on stuff we want to, bcause we get performance anxiety and doubts, we think we get off to intrusions rather than just the thought of sex / something sexual at whole..

Hey Zam. You read my post already on HOCD, I just have concerns. I tried to challenge my HOCD instrusive thoughts when my anxiety was diminished, by masturbating to them. I still had fear in me, but I told myself "this is the moment of truth, all or nothing". I tried getting off to same sex thoughts but to no avail. Instead I had intrusive heterosexual thoughts. To which I got hard from then climaxed to. I tried to do this again. Same result. One last time, it went back and forth between gay-hetero instrusive thoughts. And when I stuck with the homo thoughts I got a groinal response. Not a full blown erection, but it felt like I was stiffening up but it physically felt flaccid. However since then, gay thought or not. Whenever I touch myself or stroke my area, I feel like I'm getting hard from it. My mind is telling me now, that I'm bi and that I should come out. I feel so depressed and wish I've never done it.... I feel so disgusted, confused, depressed...

Well but at least you dont get intruisive erections the same way some OCD sufferers, like myself, do.
You might get hard from continuously testing 100x a week and 1/100 might cause a boner.. but you have to look at your actions from outside the box.. no gay man keeps testing that and one day start to like it.. everybody ive talked to said they knew more or less all the time but repressed it and then it purged out later in life..