Heya,
So there is something i found out about, that made me hopeful.. I used to get aroused by gay stuff during my HOCD and i felt convinced I'm gay during that time.. after my HOCD went away, i feel nothing for guys sexually even or any other interest. However, since my TOCD started, i feel aroused when i try to think myself as a hot woman.. i never used to do this before my TOCD started ! ... i have always wondered if OCD might cause this or at least a big part of this.. now i feel hopeful it might be true..
Here's the first study..
http://bjp.rcpsych.org/content/157/6/919.full.pdf+html
This study, and also other places i've visited talking about this same issue, states that anxiety and arousal can co-exist in a way. And that fear, as a stimulant, can boost or cause some intruisive arousals.. they are still intruisive and unwanted.. and definately feels different than "normal" arousals even if they feel "stronger". The studygroup also reported the arousals fading / disappearing in absence of anxiety.
Also this is another link i found..
http://www.raminader.com/PDFs%20Uploade ... oughts.pdf
This study states that...
"Maybe 40% of people describing their sexual obsessions to me also report some level of
accompanying physiological arousal reactions in response to the sexual thoughts. This figure
may be higher as people tend not to report these reactions due to embarrassment and fears
about what they may mean. Physiological reactions can include increased heart rate, a feeling of
being “turned on,” increased lubrication, an erection and at times orgasm. "
Another reasons why intruisive arousals might exist:
Porn habits can cause the sufferer to develop unhealthy and unusual arousals, which fade or even disappear when the brain is rewired away from this habit.
Also.. Intruisive thoughts carry sexual cues (closeness, sex, genitals..) so if you keep thinking about you having sex or when ur looking at dicks, you might get an erection.. but its not necessarily about the thoughts themselves, its what they represent. Some of you might have watched a video about a guy holding a conference for university students (don't remember the name of it right now). He said straight mens sexual cues are usually: vagina, boobs, ass, legs / feet and the penis.. the penis symbolizes sex acts, some are aroused by it itself.. shemale porn is very popular amongst STRAIGHT men.. its not something homosexuals watch.. gay men dont like the female physique sexually even if a woman had a penis.. just like straight men wouldnt like a male bodybuilder but with a p*ssy.. its just a turnoff that way.
So there is hope even for those who experience intruisive arousals and erections.. i feel happy knowing that this might be another kind of anxiety / fear boosted TOCD arousal.. at least much of it!