New theme I cant quite understand.

Every new theme seems to be a struggle but this one is different. Before it was HOCd ok a common theme, POCD also a common thing but this recent was is strange and I can't label it or see snyone who has gone through it so even in the OCD world I feel weird.
It all started when I was getting over POCD after a 3 year bout with it, I was having instrusive feelings toward a young female family member and I was able to nlow it off, however as the child sat near me I also picked ip a faint smell of odor. Dont know if it was just body odor, dirty socks, unwashed vlothing but for some reason I started to question if i liked it. I then started to think back snd remember with my past girlfriends ive had I use actuslly live the way they smelled no matter what, good smells, just the scent they gave off as everyone has thier own scent, even if they didnt have on enough deotorant or morning breath did not bother me. so i begsn to think i am a didgusting person for liking these horrible smells. Next i started to obsess and research about a certain fetish that desls with stuff like that which then triggered me into thinking what if i enjoy the smell of feces and I just started obsessing more and more and feeling disgusted. When i walked near somone I ferl as if my sense of smell was hieghtened and worried if i was aroused by the smell. So it started more and more, was i aroused by the smell of a dumpster? Smell of a public restroom? Smell of the litter box? Smell of a persons breath? Smell of dog feces? I was obsessing about the smell of everything! I felt gronials and all. WHY?
So as the obsessing transforms and finds its way to mess with me even more it has latched on to the breath of someone. Ok this is very strange to me but i just hot a new job and my coworker who sits at the desk near me has some strong breath it smells kinda bad with a scent of someone who drinks alcohol, since im at work everyday it has become a struggle. Thinking i feel aroused or enjoy the smell of his bad breath. I am a heterosexual male and he is an older man in his 50s, i know gor s fact i sm mot attracted to him. Why am i obsessinv over this?
This is where it starts digging its way deeper into the whole thing.
The other night my gf came home drunk, she smelled like alcohol, we were getting intimate and that man poppedin my head. I couldnt keep going and had to stop.
I need to find a way to get over this. Its a strange new theme to me and i feel disgusted. If snyone csn help id appreciate any input.

There is just one solution - you have to check every smell known to man to make sure you are not attracted to ANYTHING out of the ordinary. Then, you need to stop everything you are doing in the middle the day and think of a male to make sure you are not attracted to him. Actually, it's probably best to think about men ALL the time to make sure you're not attracted to ANY of them. Once you're done with that (if you ever get done), I have an infinite list of things you COULD be inappropriately attracted to - I'd say it will keep you busy at least the next billion years.

That was sarcasm, by the way. Do you see the absurdity of the OCD mindset? Don't let it suck the energy out of your daily life man. I hope you see that I am trying my best you get you out of this OCD mindset as fast as possible.

Lionchaser, I took your post quite literally until I saw that you stated you are being sarcastic.

Yes, the best thing is to ignore the thoughts. I am having trouble doing this myself. It's a nightmare. I suffered with HOCD when I was 16/17. That one went away the easiest for me, however if someone calls me a lesbian, it triggers my anxiety a bit that's for sure. I have suffered ROCD in past relationships, but always just dismissed these as normal feelings of doubt that every person gets in a relationship when the honeymoon phase ends. Unfortunately, I suffered extreme ROCD 8 weeks ago, which left me uncontrollable urges to dump my boyfriend. It was horrific. I literally felt hopeless and like I wanted to die. Now the ROCD has taken a back seat and I am suffering with POCD. The intrusive thoughts are disturbing, and my response to them, even worse! I feel like I am slowly coming through it, suffering more and more anxiety as each day passes, but you know what? I haven't helped myself. Every day when I wake up I come onto forums, or chat with people on facebook, and I just go over and over and over. I've been told by countless people "You are not one of those!!!" But I don't believe them. I've been convincing myself for years that I am someone who I fear to become, and I think deep down I've always denied it, and tried to cover it up and keep it a secret, even though the intrusive thoughts have not been there a lot of time in the last 7 years!

You have to try and distract yourself. Don't fight the thoughts, just allow them to linger, and guide them through the clearly marked "Exit" door in your mind. People with OCD tend to dwell on thoughts more than that of people who don't suffer the condition. Non-sufferers just pass them off as absurd thoughts, but OCD'ers are deep think'ers

I'm here for you.

HelpMeSoScared,

Thanks, it's nice to know have friends helping you through these things. I can relate to the going over and over the OCD issue, and having several people tell me I am fine and not this horrible person I am tempted to think I am.

Btw, I hope you didn't also take the billion years part seriously.

With this illness, you really CAN'T take anything seriously lol.

Any time anyone needs to chat privately, PM me!

Thank you both for the support and kind words. i will admit that when i posted this i was waiting for a response of someone who has gone through the same exact experience. See with HOCD I could relate, same symptoms as well as POCD very common but I research to find about this and get nothing so in turn makes me feel strange, weird and very alone even in the OCD world. I guess I can catergorize this under HOCD since it deals with a man as of late but the smell thing has been associated to people (male and Female), pets and inanimate objects. It just really hit hard as it affected me personally as it came between me and the person I care for and in my personal space. I felt like OCD took its next step of torment if that makes sense.

Ok this morning I had a gronial arousal feeling almost immediately and unconsciously upon waking up this morning after I smelled the smell of our dog using the restroom. Ok so this is happening to me unconsciously now before the thought of " oh do i feel anything down there." Does this happen in OCD
I just experienced this and ive never had this happen with hocd, pocd or any of it

Another OCD trick. It's trying to get you to think you have done something irreversibly horrible.

If the same thing happened to me, this is probably how it would play out in my head...

OCD: Aha! You got aroused by the smell of that dog using the bathroom. You really are a sick person!

Me: Seriously? <then I'd ignore it>


I'd ignore it because I didn't actually DO anything and I do not accept that notion of arousal that was put in my head.

The thing is I felt a gronial response towards this which makes this seem real so Im very confused.

What you are implying is that a groinal response of any kind automatically means that you wanted the groinal response.

Does that sound logical to you?