by ..bbg.. » Mon Jul 10, 2006 9:48 pm
Thanks for the replies, they were useful.
My other symptoms of ocpd (or ocd, I'm not quite sure yet) are having to always be in control of everything, arranging things in perfect order, checking things, grouping objects according to colour..ect. People say I'm a perfectionist and I get easily upset if things don't go the way I planned them to go, or if something happens that changes the way I planned out my day to go.I also have a thing with the number 8, and have to do things 8 times or touch things 8 times to get them to feel right. I don't like odd numbers so I try and avoid them as much as I can.
I found that whenever I have an episode of deep depression, my anxiety doesn't get worse, it gets better (I suppose)..I don't do many of my "rituals" as much, because I'm usually in bed the whole day or just preoccupied with my suicidal and negative thoughts in my head. I feel too tired to do anything,so sometimes I don't do all of my "rituals". But then after my depression gets a bit better, I feel guilty for not doing all my rituals and such so my anxiety gets worse...