Advice From an Ex Hocd, Harm OCD, pure OCDer.

Hi All,

I have made many posts on this forum in regards to OCD. I more recently posted an entry on how I am OCD free - this means I am free from my crazy reactions to what I once thought were harmful or horrible (and true thoughts). I went through a horrible bought of hocd and harm OCD that I eventually cured and I am free! That story can be read if you search my past posts. But I wanted to reach out a hand to those that may be suffering right now with any type of theme. I know how painful it is and I want to reach out! There were times when I just needed to talk to someone and hear experiences! Please ask any questions. I was trapped in a VERY SCARY AND LONELY OCD world I thought I'd never escape but the real truth is YOU CAN. Don't let these thoughts take power over you. Remember if you fear it, you are NOT it.

I hope you'll get some replies to this thread. But you'd be really welcome to post to other threads around here too. I think newcomers can be shy about posting in other people's threads. At least the pattern mostly seems to be people starting threads themselves.

It would be great to get more conversations going here. And part of that is people being willing to post around the place.

How do you deal with spikes>? There are times or what I call, lapses, where things arent going well and I think I'm going to be alone the rest of my life and really the girl im dating and looking to pursuit a long term relationship isn't interested in that with me, I get self doubt. I know I'm not gay, trust me. I've tried to think very extensively whether I could be with the same sex and it disgusts me. I never had these thoughts until my ex broke up with me and then few months later, the rebound girl ditched me as well when I caught feelings.

Guess it's been a bad year and I think the self doubt is combination of HOCD and being a bit down in the dumps and, well over thinking things.

Thoughts?

I just recently developed HOCD and ive had other kinds of ocd in the past. But this HOCD is definetly the worst. I guess because being straight it the most important thing to me. Im a girl by the way. Anyway I just posted about it and id really appreciate it if you could read it and reply. Thanks so much.

Hello sir. Please read my private message i really need some advice and help :[

I am a girl as well so I can definitely relate to your situation as I had hocd as well. OCD is funny because it'll create the themes that are MOST opposite of your personality. For me I had a wonderful boyfriend of almost a year that I was afraid of losing so obviously the OCD attacked that by feeding all these doubts to me about not loving him enough or not actually liking men. These were all lies and although I didn't want to be gay or didn't want to not love him, there was no way I could convince myself of that. The OCD made me doubt everything. If you don't want to be gay, you are not. IF YOU FEAR IT, YOU ARE NOT IT.

girlL23 wrote:I just recently developed HOCD and ive had other kinds of ocd in the past. But this HOCD is definetly the worst. I guess because being straight it the most important thing to me. Im a girl by the way. Anyway I just posted about it and id really appreciate it if you could read it and reply. Thanks so much.