Am I getting obsessed again?

I'm a guitarist, and lately I've been getting very worried about the tone of my guitar...specifically, I'm worried that the tone is too harsh and biting to the ear. A few months ago, I would regularly stay at school until like 4:30, hanging out with friends. Now, when the final bell rings at 2:40, I'm dying to get home and modify my tone.

I'm worried that if I don't get the perfect tone, then I'll be a failure as a musician. I'm also worried that I won't be able to get sleep at night because I'll be up thinking about the guitar. Every day, every minute, all I can think about is my tone.

My amp and guitar aren't that expensive. Together, they cost around 900 or so dollars, which isn't that expensive for a hobby such as the guitar. So I spend as much time as I could online, researching more expensive amps in order to find out if THEY sound harsh as well. That way, I could feel better about myself, and the fact that people can live with the harshness. Or at least, that's what's supposed to happen; I DON'T feel better at all!

Furthermore, I think I'm obsessed with how loud my amp is. The style of music I play, Prog Rock, calls for some loud volumes, and I'm worried that my amp is too quiet, even though everybody who owns the amp says otherwise. I'll therefore spend days anxiously waiting for my next church gig, to test my settings out in order to see whether or not my tone cuts through the band.

Does it sound like OCD to you guys?