HOCD vs. Being in the Closet/in Denial

Hi Jack


Could you check out my topic and tell me what you think? I'm gay as well but I think I might have pocd or pedophillia..

Hi Jack. Thank you so much for posting this.

I know you said that you feared the attraction too. So how is that fear different from what I feel? Because I am very scared of these thoughts as well. I know that a lot of homosexual people experience the same thing as HOCD sufferers so how is HOCD different and how do I know if I have it. I am so scared of losing my attraction to guys. I have always had crushses on guys, liked guys, and I fell hard for this one guy. I am so confused because I was fine a month ago and I thought it was going away but its coming back again. It feels so real this time because I am feel like I like a friend of mine but its not a sexual way. I dont even think its romantic because I dont think of her romantically or have the urge to be around her or even text her. But either way my mind tells me I am a lesbian and I like her. I am so scared right now. I am so tired and done with everything because this is the absolute worst feeling and situation I have gone through in my entire life. I have never ever questioned my sexuality in my life before. It wasnt even something I paid attention to because its who i am. But now everything revolves around sexuality. All i see are girls around me and that makes me nervous. I dont want to like girls. I am desperate for this to go away. Its like for my mind and brain there is no bisexuality. I tell myself i could be Bi but its like my brain is adamant on not registering it. Its either straighr or not. I really like this guy right now. I am attracted to him and I do like him yet what my mind tells me scares me and freaks me out. I dont get as much anxiety but all i wanna do is cry and just die. Its all i wish for.

Simply because you don't just lose attraction to a gender. If you read the original post over again you'll see all your questions have already been answered.

The only example I can see where someone found men attractive at one time but don't is with a pansexual. A pansexual has no gender exclusive attraction though and they often find traits and personalities sexually attractive regardless of gender. That doesn't seem to describe you though.