Weird OCD flare up! Scary!

Hey everyone...long time lurker. I've suffered from various of OCD over the year and I've had a bizarre OCD spike like never before. The other day I spent at the beach because it was awesome out. Because it was a quiet out of season day I did something that I haven't done before...wore speedo style boxy swim trunks out at the beach. I've worn that style before; I swam all through college and never thought anything of it. All summer I've been dieting and working out, as I'm getting married next summer and am confident about my appearance again.

While I was at the beach I had a brief intrusive thought, as the only other people wearing that style swim suit were gay and feared that because I was dressed similarly I might be gay. I was quickly able to dismiss it, as beach attire has no bearing on sexuality. And I wasn't bothered that there were visibly gay people there, as I'm not homophobic. Later that night, I told my fiancee about my day and she was displeased about my swimsuit choice as it's to skimpy for her liking.

A few hours later, I wound up having a huge panic attack and intrusive thoughts that I was orally sexually assaulted while at the beach, which I know didn't happen. It's doubly stressing to not only have to remind yourself that didn't happen, but to have combined that with the odd feeling of being I'm now questioning my sexuality. And it activates my germ OCD, with the thought that i could have been sexually assaulted with someone with HIV or other diseases. I know none of this happened, but I can't stop thinking/worrying about it.


Has anyone ever had a feeling like this before or am I just being crazy?