Celebrity Obsession

I don't know if this fits here but I feel I am pretty much obsessed with a same gender celebrity ...and it has been for about 2 years now. I hate the feeling that sometimes I just think about her out of no where and feels my life sucks - I am ugly and talentless compared to her .. I had had dreams of her, sometimes we flirt a little in the dream but most times I was just idolising her. I have to constantly tell myself that I am not obsessed about her as I did not fall into any of the 'danger' zone symptoms until recently another celebrity confessed to her that I actually felt hurt.
It is not the kind that I will need to kill myself or cry like a baby but it just don't feel good. And the worst thing is that I will feel really bad about myself when I think I am obsessed with her - as it makes me feel lesbian and I just don't like the idea .. but I think I am probably lesbian or bi but leaning more towards liking female ... It is kind of driving me crazy ..