Some questions about a obsession

Hello!

I am not sure if this is in the right sub-forum. This topic is about a OBSESSION, even though i mention some other things. Please keep this topic here, because i am looking for information on Obsessions and not on the other things i mention. Let's just imagine for a moment that the issue i am about to explain has nothing to do with Gender Dysphoria or Transsexualism.

I have read that it is possible for people to create obsessions, and are basically rewarded with endorphins when you do something with it. Is it possible to have a obsessions that makes you feel fantastic while dressed up as the other sex? I dress normally, with the intent to look like a girl. It is absolutely nothing sexual, neither am i a Transvestite. I am asking this because i have had incredible moments of joy and happiness i haven't felt in a long time, but i am really not sure if this is the work of a obsession, or that i am actually Transgender.

So if this is a hidden obsession, disguised in the form of Gender Dysphoria, it sure is wreaking a lot of havoc on my life. It's making me follow the path of a real Transsexual. Do you think obsessions can get this powerful? Do they have the power to make people believe things that aren't true? If i feel out of this world fantastic while i am dressed up as a girl, you can see how this can make me believe i am really like that. Please note that i am already quite informed about Gender disorders so basic explanations of the disorder won't help.

(EDIT: Added question) Is it possible to receive Endorphins on a regular basis all because you feel some pressure against your chest? It is the feeling i get when i wear a stuffed bra and pretend to have breasts, it is a very simple feeling psychically so i wonder if something as basic as this could be a intense obsession.. because the feeling of well being is tremendous. Other option could be i am actually transgender.

Thanks!

The only input I can give you is an example and some comments.

My cousin went from being a woman to being a man. Operations, name change, the whole thing. He is even balding like an old man. He lives a quiet and unassuming life.

His change from female to male came form the heart of his being, not just from cross-dressing, or even one or two other "signs". He knew he was a man (in a women's body) and that is what he changed himself into.

In most cases I can't see an obsession with one aspect of transgender issues forcing someone to go through the process of changing sexes. If it does, there has to be other psychological issues forcing the point. And I would feel very sorry for someone who went through that change and then found out it was just a psychological hoax. But I can't say I have ever heard of such a case.

Since we are not here to diagnose, but just to give feedback and support, that is all I can say, except that maybe a therapist can help you sort through what may just be an obsession, or something else.

Good luck,

Otter.

There are many "types" of Transsexuals. They can discover it at any age, even up to as old a 60. There are countless ways to discover you are TG. I have read plenty of stories, in every variation. From Transvestites who discover it after years of dressing, there are even people who get intense arousal from dressing up, and yes they too had a transition and are now living life like they are supposed to. To say that there is only one way to do this "right" is wrong. I am willing to bet 80% of all Transsexuals around the world did not have the typical "I like to play with barbies instead of toy cars!" experience. Or the other way around for the FtMs.

But that was not why i made this topic. I made this topic because i have intense issues with all of this, and i am going to explore every possibility before i do something dramatic. Don't worry, i am going to be treated soon by professional people. The reason i ask this question on this forum is because i want to know if other issues can mimic Gender Dysphoria. Feedback is exactly why i came here.

I believe i might have a weak variation of OCD, nothing like the heavy cases but still something that causes me a lot of stress.

I appreciate your comment though.

I'm sorry if my post seemed to suggest that there was only one way to transsexuality. My essential point is that it would ultimately have to be discovered at the root of our being to seek such a change. I don't believe it can remain at the superficial level, or even involve an specific obsession to cause that kind of change. But that is my feedback.

I'm not sure I really understand which word people throw around for fun and giggles. You're asking me not to start something must have been triggered by something in my post. If there was I apologize, there is nothing in my post that I can see that would make you think I was anything but serious.

To answer your query directly, I don't think there is an OCD element here. My experiences with OCD are very succinct, as are the cases I have read. Maybe there is someone here who can speak to a weak variation of OCD that might apply to your situation of obsession. I'd like to learn, if so. I will differ to others at this point.

O.

I am really sorry Otter i didn't know what i was thinking, i see that it did sound hostile. You didn't have to apologize, it was my mistake. It is because i sometimes see people who treat OCD as a exlusive club and unless you got doctors proof you are not allowed to even type or say the word OCD.

It is true that the answer comes from the core of your being, but some people have difficulty deciphering their thoughts and issues into something tangible. It is very common. From what i can say i know i have something along the lines of "weak OCD" because the compulsions i have are usually within comfort level, only a few things are very difficult for me. Because i don't know if OCD could have partially contributed to my problems i'll keep it at "Weak OCD" Because if it is really the culprit then i would have a very powerful version of OCD.

I could see how some aspects of my GID could be OCD, example being i have a night ritual that i must follow, and i have done so for a few years now. When i did not something felt really wrong and i couldnt sleep, actually i never slept without the ritual.

Is it possible to receive Endorphins on a regular basis all because you feel some pressure against your chest? It is the feeling i get when i wear a stuffed bra and pretend to have breasts, it is a very simple feeling psychically so i wonder if something as basic as this could be a intense obsession.. because the feeling of well being is tremendous. Other option could be i am actually transgender.

Sylanor wrote:I am really sorry Otter i didn't know what i was thinking, i see that it did sound hostile. You didn't have to apologize, it was my mistake. It is because i sometimes see people who treat OCD as a exlusive club and unless you got doctors proof you are not allowed to even type or say the word OCD.

Thank you for your understanding Sylanor. It's good we worked things out. I understand your point about the "exclusive club", and this seems to run across an array of diagnoses regarding mental illness and how professional and patients see things. But that is another topic.

Your need for ritualism certainly may be OCD. And I should have said to begin with that any category of mental illness is anything but absolute and can certainly overlap each other. So maybe someone will be able to speak to this more varied idea.

Besides my cousin I don't know much about transgender issues. Although his life is certainly a BIG example and propelled me beyond being a novice in understanding, the rest of my feedback was instinct.

My chief hope out of all of this is that you can find a center point that makes you happy to enjoy your life in whatever manner that is and settle the stress that is wreaking havoc on your life.

O.

An obsession can be created out of absolutely anything, and the pull can be very, very strong.