What do I have?

Hi all,

From the time that I wake up in the morning to the time I go to bed at night, I am plagued by thoughts. Even when I am doing some activity or household chores, my thoughts are running in the background. Sometimes, its as simple as songs that play for days and days. Sometimes, its regarding health like thinking continuously about my depression and anxiety symptoms and trying to find ways to get rid of these symptoms by googling or thinking about them. Sometimes I also obsessively think about the past where people where laughing at me or mistakes that I made or negative events that make me depressed. And finally, when anxious, I obsessively think about hypothetical future situations such as making up conversations in my head with people into the future.

Violent shootings like the Sandy Hook shooting and the recent gangrape of a person in India also produces thoughts of harm and sexual thoughts in my mind although I am a highly morally conscious person and would never do something like that. I obsessively search news and feel anxiety in my body during these times.

One more thing I have noticed is that I seek a lot of reassurance. For example, after I watch a youtube video, I see comments and look at the ones that match my opinion. I do that in everything and I feel as if I have sort of lost confidence in a lot of things in my life.

Can anyone tell me if I have signs of pure o? Please suggest me any tips on dealing with these problems.

Thanks.

What you've described is pretty much the definition of Pure-O. When treating Pure-O, it's important to adopt a philosophy that thoughts are not dangerous and it's okay to have any thought. When you have a non-violent thought, such as a song playing over and over in your head, what is your typical response? What's your coping mechanism?

Here is a link to a thread I've made on Pure-O that I think will be informative to you:
obsessive-compulsive/topic103176.html