So scared, these intrusive thoughts are killing me :(

Yes I agree. Ocd Is called the "doubting disease" cause you are constantly doubting yourself . My problem is that I get nervous knowing that I'm physically capable of acting on my thoughts. But I tell myself, well Duh, anyone is capable of doing horrific things, but its our morals that stop us. I'm constantly asking/analyzing my thoughts which is the killer. I've been doing a lot better as again, when I feel a weird feeling or thought coming on, I let it happen then STOP it at that, and let me tell you, it helps. The more I analyze and digg deep into my thoughts, the worse I get and I let my mind get the best of me and that's when I start doubting myself and almost feel urged to act on them (i obviously couldn't) but its the anxiety that starts going as well. I don't let myself do the what's ifs, analyze or dig into my thoughts and tell myself look, THESE ARE YOUR THOUGHTS NOT YOU, if you were physcopathic, you would have done weird things A LONG time ago, you just don't turn physcopathic one day out of the blue. So again, I have gotten A LOT BETTER, not engaging in my thoughts, analyzing or doing the what ifs... I know the fact that we all at one point hated these thoughts, I still do, but again don't give them attention, means we are good people. Just know, ANYONE Is capable of doing ANYTHING, and that's what's scary, but don't let your mind get the best of you!

-- Thu Nov 15, 2012 3:06 am --

Yes I agree. Ocd Is called the "doubting disease" cause you are constantly doubting yourself . My problem is that I get nervous knowing that I'm physically capable of acting on my thoughts. But I tell myself, well Duh, anyone is capable of doing horrific things, but its our morals that stop us. I'm constantly asking/analyzing my thoughts which is the killer. I've been doing a lot better as again, when I feel a weird feeling or thought coming on, I let it happen then STOP it at that, and let me tell you, it helps. The more I analyze and digg deep into my thoughts, the worse I get and I let my mind get the best of me and that's when I start doubting myself and almost feel urged to act on them (i obviously couldn't) but its the anxiety that starts going as well. I don't let myself do the what's ifs, analyze or dig into my thoughts and tell myself look, THESE ARE YOUR THOUGHTS NOT YOU, if you were physcopathic, you would have done weird things A LONG time ago, you just don't turn physcopathic one day out of the blue. So again, I have gotten A LOT BETTER, not engaging in my thoughts, analyzing or doing the what ifs... I know the fact that we all at one point hated these thoughts, I still do, but again don't give them attention, means we are good people. Just know, ANYONE Is capable of doing ANYTHING, and that's what's scary, but don't let your mind get the best of you!

Awesome! I'm glad that you've reached a point where you can let go and understand that these thoughts can be tossed to the wayside. You definitely are a good person with strong values! As long as you keep reminding yourself of these things, everything will be a-ok

From what you just said, it sounds like you're well on the road to recovery. You may at times lose faith, but stick at what you're doing and over time you will feel better. Eventually you'll wonder why those thoughts bothered you like that in the first place, they will normalise and become no different to any other random obscure thing that might pop into your head yet you wouldn't think twice on.

Thank you everyone, we will all be OK! take care

-- Sat Nov 17, 2012 4:19 am --

Thank you everyone, we will all be OK! take care

Hello,

I know it is easy for everyone to say that these are only thoughts, but it is very true. If you learn to disassociate yourself with these thoughts, which can take some time and a lot of effort, you will begin to realize that they are just thoughts. If you know in your heart that you would never want to do anything like this, then you will not. Remember that you have control over what you do, not your mind. You! Start to trust that your true self and heart know best and that the thoughts that you have do not control you. You can control them! I undertstand this very well as I had intrusive thoughts come out of nowhere and effected me for 2 years... very hard But it does get better! My advice is to read as much as you can about OCD to realize that it is just your brain being a little funky, but you can change the way it works. I have also gotten really involved with yoga and meditation, which teaches you that you are not your mind, and you have control. So stay hopeful and trust yourself. You will be okay

I am in the cycle right now I feel like crap anxiety all time afraid to be alone etc... I worry about harming I constantly question myself I seem to be my own worst enemy. I wish it would go away I miss my life I have became housebound, I don't want to go anywhere. I do if I have to but I always want to go home. I don't have any advice but you are not alone.

Today been a bit difficult as I was laying with my little dog and boom I had a rhought about choking her and I was analyzing it and almost felt urged to do it (i obviously didn't). I told myself it was just my ocd messing with my head, nd to let it go. I let it go but it still ruined my whole day! I have when I start doubting myself and feeling like I would actually do them. I know in my inner core that I couldn't mentally do something so violent to anyone but my mind plays tricks on me I realized the less analyzing I do, the better off I am. Does anyone ever feel this way? like almost feel urged? My boyfriend told me its because I know I'm physically capable of harming someone/something so when I start analyzing something and its right in front of me, knowing u could act out on my thought/fear right then and there, I get anxiety and that's what makes feel urged. I hate this, I've been having a good past two weeks but knowing I'm going to be alone this weekend with my boyfriend (him sleeping over) is making me nervous :/

Just keep telling yourself that it's a self-fulfilling prophecy. The thoughts are only going to push back the harder you try to fend them off. It's like one of Newton's laws (3rd, I think?): every action has an equal and opposite reaction. The more you try to pick apart and analyze them, the more you are going to convince yourself of the worst case scenario. Think it through: "I love my dog. I would never want anything to happen to her. These bad thoughts are passing and I won't let them win." Keep repeating this to yourself, and take deep breaths, all while cuddling her of course!

Wow, I just shocked myself o_O I was right! It IS Newton's 3rd Law! Guess I did learn something in physics, after all

Thank you for your reply!

Can someone please give me some advice. As in my recent posts, I struggle with intrusive thoughts. Majority of them are about knives. My spike started about a month ago (this was the first time ever that Ive ever gotten depressed/obsessed over violent thoughts, I'd usually just dis regard them). So when they first started, my boyfriend had slept over, and I sleep with a knife next to my bed in my dresser as I stay home quite a bit and feel safer... So that night he slept over, I woke up in the middle of the night and I felt the urge to prove to myself that id never hurt him so I held the knife in my hand (not over him) and laid in bed with anxiety through the roof, I was analyzing the thought and it was making me sick . Asking myself, do I really want to do this? I could easily do it right now if I wanted to. I kept analyzing and analyzing to the point I almost felt urged in a way, but its like I know I could never / want to do such a horrible thing! Why did I feel like that? Was it because I was analyzing the crap out of it at the moment and knew that one of my fears could potentially happen or cone true cause I was in a situation where I knew I could easily do it if I wanted to? I layed in bed next to him with bad anxiety the whole night, I felt so guilty and kept wondering and thinking back if I really wanted to do it I couldn't sleep nd felt so horrible. I love my boyfriend of 6 years, he's my everything and I know I'd be destroyed if anything ever happen to him.

So my question is, I know heel be sleeping over this weekend, I'm worried sick. I don't want to feel anxiety or feel Like I need to prove to myself I wouldnt do such a thing. Any advice on dealing with this?