News of Self Esteem

Hello, I really just need to talk.
I have a really hard time when it comes to how I look. I see these things blaring at me from every direction telling me I'm not good enough. I know I'm not beautiful or that I am ever going to be beautiful, but that doesn't stop how much it hurts.
My boyfriend is the sweetest guy in the world. I told him that I didn't want him ...

I always thought i was a reasonably ok sorta person.
I wasnt much in the looks department when i was a kid, and was teased for being ugly, but i seemed to blossom a bit as a teenager, and learned to make the best of myself.
I never really thought to much about me, just tried to be the best kind of person i could be. I was lucky, had a good upbringing, happy family. ...

I have a major problem. I am a compulsive liar. I started lying when I was very young in order for kids to think I was cool and stop beating me up in middle school. However my Mom seems to think it goes back to when my Father killed himself and I felt like I just wasn't good enough to hang around for. My lies are never meant to hurt anyone. They are always just ...

I have a major problem. I am a compulsive liar. I started lying when I was very young in order for kids to think I was cool and stop beating me up in middle school. However my Mom seems to think it goes back to when my Father killed himself and I felt like I just wasn't good enough to hang around for. My lies are never meant to hurt anyone. They are always just ...

Since a stroke made me unable to do the thingsI identify as making me of value,I feel I am no longer a real person, but just a thing.

I've never been on this before, but I don't know what to do and I'm tired of hating myself. For as long as I can remember I've always compared myself to other people regarding everything. How good looking they are, how shiny their hair is, how skinny they are, how funny, how confident... the list goes on. I come across as a confident girl who can sometimes be a bit shy, at least at first, ...

i dont know whats wrong with me, i would be putting on make up in my room in front of my mirror and i would just feel really pretty but when i go out i just start feeling really really ugly. Everybody i see is so much better-looking than me, i cant stand it, and i dont know why.
I know that its whats inside that counts but i really dont think i have anything ...

I don't even know where to start, what to say, what to expect, anything. I am miserable. I can not keep living my life like this. I'm 25 years old, and I have no one. The only person in my life is my mother..... i have no one to talk to about this 'problem'.

And I am scared and ashamed to talk about my problem, because it's so pathetic, i'm so ashamed.

All I want ...

I hate everything that i am. I don't even know what i am. I have a boyfriend, i go to uni. I've cheated on my boyfriend more times then i can count. I cheat on him with anybody. Any perfect stranger can come up to me and kiss me and i would respond. I only use alcohol as an excuse. I feel so pathetic, i feel like such a loser. I have no "real" friends. ...

Sometimes, i think i'm super good looking
super funny
just all-around amazing to be with

But then I get that one occasional insult that actually does hit close to home, and I feel like completel trash for weeks-months-even years.

It seems jsut when i'm getting my confidence up, something comes along to ruin it. Most of the time, it's me telling myself to stop being confident.

Even when i'm up, I usually hate myself. I ...