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Its driven me nuts, and I’ve come to a dangerous realization. I’ve been dealing with POCD for a year and a half and I think I’m just a pedophile at this point. I don’t want anything to do with children and I am deathly afraid of being around them but I realize that children can be pretty, like have cute faces and that I observe them and think “they have a cute face” the same ...

It’s been a few months since I’ve been on here but I’ve reached my peak. While I was I had a girlfriend we dated for about two months, I tried sex again and I enjoyed, there was times I didn’t know if I knew I liked the way her boobs felt and sometimes I did. Most of that time my HOCD went away. I know any gay male wouldn’t want to have sex with a ...

Hey there,

I apologise for putting this on people ok Christmas Eve, but I’m feeling at such a low ebb and I don’t know where else to turn.

I can’t figure out if this is asking for reassurance for OCD or not but I think the fact I’m even questioning it suggests I know the answer.

I will try to keep this brief..I promise.

Sometimes bullet pointing makes things easier for me, and probably less ...

Hello everybody,

as you can tell from the title the topic of my post is kind of delicate, but nontheless it might be of great importance to some folks. People that are either scared, disgusted or infuriated by this topic are requested to leave the thread at this point. Everyone else is invited to read further and maybe change his point of view or even benefit from my hypotheses.

At first I am going to ...

Once again, I'm struggling with my fear that I might be attracted to little girls' v*lvas. It feels so horrifically real at times, and I've been having moments where it feels like I genuinely want to think p*do thoughts. I'm so depressed. My mom keeps telling me that I'm not that way, and I want to believe that. It's just so hard when you live with thoughts like these in your head all the time. ...

Im a 17 year old young man, who had never questioned his heterosexuality until August 2019. This whole gay fiasco started cuz at that time I talked to a gay dude, who told me that he was straight and then turned gay. He also told me that he turned his friend into his bf. So this scared the cr@p out of me and I have been thinking about this ever since. Its highly likely that ...

Hey everyone, posted here recently but I have a question. As I've mentioned before I've had some huge anxiety and been obsessing over something inappropriate I would do as a 12/13 year old and I feel theres some strong OCD tendencies in this. A 'compulsion' I have to alleviate this anxiety is actually reading about pure-O/Real event OCD and reassuring myself through relating what I'm going through to what the website describes. This works for ...

I keep checking to make sure im not turned on, and im not. But now I am afraid I am attracted to little girls wearing their swimsuits. I checked to make sure I wasn't turned on and again I wasn't, but the pictures look so sexualized and I feel disgusted by it. Another intrusive thought came up as well,
Possible trigger:
it was about me creating a child porn forum or making an account for ...

Hello, I would just like to make a brief summary of my issues before I begin explaining. I’m currently a 19 year old male who has had OCD for 7 years on and off. It began when I was around 12 and has been re-emerging in spikes over the near decade, however the current spike I’m faced with is the worst one and I feel trapped like there is no other way out except for ...

So, yesterday I was worried because there were moments where it felt like I was becoming okay with being a p*do, and so I kept trying to convince myself I wasn't okay with it. And now I'm having moments where I think it feels like I actually want to look at little girls. Help!