News of Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) Forum

I’m new to the board, though I’ve been consuming for years, I’ve finally decided to contribute now. In a mid-age male with a beautiful family. I identify as straight and cisgender.

My story, like every other story here, is long and complicated. So I’m going to try and keep it short. From birth to 12yo I grew up in a very anxiety provoking time/society/family. Then I was sexually abused for a whole year. To get ...

It's been a LONG while since I've posted anything on this forum. In fact, it's been awhile since I've searched anything related to HOCD. HOCD came to me six years ago and remained in my life ever since. For the first five years...it was hell. I've never been interested in girls, I'm a girl, and yes once I was curious...but I never doubted my sexuality. I never doubted my attraction to males. Then HOCD came ...

Like, can it make you feel like you want to do things with kids, for example? I know you can definitely get physical sensations in your privates and stuff, but what about thoughts such as 'ooh, I want that'? Obviously accompanied by anxiety and generally awful feelings.

I been dealing with what I hope is POCD for about a decade at this point, and it's scaring me to death...

So, I broke down and did a couple of my compulsions (looking at pictures of toddler girls on Google, and imagining stuff). Instant regret... I was doing somewhat okay for a couple of days, but now I'm upset and worried. I'm so f-ing stupid...

Hey. I'd suffering from what I thought was pocd for over half a year now. But now i think it may just be real. Ive been testing myself a lot lately. A lot of the times I'd just get the worst responses. Feelings of attraction and groinal actively. I desperately tried telling myself it was just my brain ######6 with me, as prior to this the ages I was attracted to were all relatively normal. ...

Hi, sorry for this post being extremely long. This is my first post ever regarding my obsessions and fears. I have an appointment with my GP next week and simply want advice on the matter, as I’m really taking a leap of faith now... Anyhow, I also want to mention that I’ve had health obsessions/fearing that I had diseases like rabies (for a whole year after being told the kitten that bit me was vaccinated ...

Dear Frinds,

I've been feeling terrible lately and i really need some help because i can't seem to sort this out on my own.

i've been dealing with POCD on and off for the past 10 years or so. Sometimes I feel like I have it beat and it goes away for a few months only to resurface and make me feel even worse than before and it keeps looping and looping in a cycle ...

Kept having intrusive images of children flash in my mind. Not sexual images, mind you, but it was still distressing.
So I made a bad decision: I did my rumination routine, and made myself conjure the images on purpose to try and confront them. Now I'm scared I'm attracted to the children I imagined...

I'm very scared and depressed, and I don't know what to do... I want to believe I'm not a P, but...

First of all Im not trolling this is serious.I did some things when i was younger that I am ashamed and feel guilty of I was between the ages of 5-13. I wont go into details but I did some sexual things with 2 of my cousins at least 2 or 3 times. These were separate events and I had so much guilt and shame when i was younger that I confessed to my mom ...

Like anytime you've got an OCD anxiety panic attack, you question who are you & what you're feeling. You wonder why you're like this, how come I'm the only person to be infected with X? It's a weird feeling, like:
Why am I gay/lesbian? How come I have the urge to harm anyone? Am I a disgusting monster that has a sick attraction? How do I exist? Why do I exist? What is this feeling? ...