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*Trigger Warning flashbacks mention of abuse*

why scold me? i was a good girl. did nothing wrong. Please don't hit :cry: Please don't. NO! It's cold. Too cold. Shout! I did nothing wrong. Was good girl. :cry: Don't !

it scary. old people shauting. we watch cartoons. nice cartoons. then, they shaut. wat ...

Just now the whole world seemed strange to me, i could see more, feel more, hear more, etc. It started with my head feeling painfull, but not like a headache, it was a "soft" kind of pain, hard to describe. after that my guitar sounded way different, it sounded way clearer than than usual. As if I could hear every vibration. I also felt those vibrations, with the leg on which I put the guitar. ...

Logan needs to stop. He acts as though the mistakes I have made can be pinned onto everyone else. He refuses to allow me to blame myself for things that I have clearly done wrong. No, this is not an abuse thing. I took part in making a huge mistake in the past and it WAS my doing.

Now, I am suffering the consequences of that mistake and I must face it, yet Logan is ...

I was thinking about things that help me get through the day and I came to songs that give me strength or make me feel better. I thought it would be nice for people to share any songs that make them feel good or motivated or better about their experiences. These are my songs-

Woodkid-Run Boy Run http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lmc21V-zBq0 I find the music video very empowering.

Muse- Survival ...

So. Lots of mixed feelings between all of us. Just venting I guess...

To start, have not been able to talk to anyone or come on the forum for about a week now. No electronics because grades. Whatever. It only stressed me out more. Good job helping there. They're dropping even more now.

Haven't been able to focus on anything. Dissociating constantly.

Then I'm studying and all of a sudden I'm panicking. Panicpanicpanic nonono but ...

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Valentines Day is coming up...I hate valentines day personally. But my friend said It's all about the love... 8)

I'm not talking about intamite relationships. But If you want to write about that you can. :D

So is there anything you want to say
any person, thing, alter, Family, Friends, Cats, dogs Toilets anything!! Just ...

Okay, so I've noticed that when I feel a particular alter, I suddenly feel like I have the ability and interest to do things that usually bore me or things that I am terrible at. Logan gives me the urge to play video games and believe that I could actually be good at them. Hope seems to want to study and learn math and seems interested and finance and stuff. These are NOT my interests ...

Blurred The only desription I can give is mixing the voices are everyone.
some becoming externall A whisper here and there. The world is stranger I don't feel like there is a defined reality anymore It's hard to cope with.
Claureshia is gone Barriers down They all want to be known listen to exprience what I call a bland world to share I can't block any thing well we can't stop the forces I know ...

Well we were back in the hospital for the second time in two months. They thought we were having seizers but decided they were tremors. This crap drives one over the edge at times.
They gave us risperidone, another antipsychotic. After a visit with the hospital’s mental health team we were give the diagnosis of tremors.
Score board
Suicidal risk
Tremor
DID
Schizotypal personality disorder
Severe Social phobia disorder
Severe Anxiety disorder
The Doctor at ...

I felt I would put down my favourite pastimes hobbies Etc...

My favourite: reading/learning
baking
viola
singing
care taking for all and any

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anyone else whom would like to add there's feel free

Love you all to crumbles <3