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So I've started therapy about a month ago and of course there are some things I can't lie about so I told my mom I was seeing a therapist and she had me talk to someone about medication. Well today I took my first dose of abilify. My mom sorta had a breakdown and beat it out of me why I am going to therapy and that I have d.I.d. well she wasn't too happy ...

I realized today how intrinsic shame is to my way of understanding myself. Shame on me for feeling that way! :D

I never saw before how deeply rooted shame was in my family system. Now I know.

I realized today how frequently I switch when I connected my chronic problem of losing things with the possibility that I'm not losing things at all, I just have one of my alters putting them where that alter thinks they should go.

I've not been one to buy things and later be surprised when I find them, but this "placement" issue seems to be my version of that. Things don't appear, they disappear.

Hey'ya. What's up? How are you?

Me? Well... I'm going through one of my phases again. It's like an economic chart. I go up, then I crash down, and slowly go back up. Right now, I'm in the deepest recession I've ever been in. You know. The whole 'If no one's gonna believe me, then why should i even care about my life?' 'Dammit Kendra! i want you OUT. Even if that means i have ...

Ok, so I’ve been struggling along as usual and I think that a new coping method “my” psychologist is getting me to try out is actually making my condition worse.

She told me that whenever I feel a flashback coming on I should look around me and focus on staying in the “here and now” by taking some deep breaths and telling myself (and possibly everyone else in my mind) what is currently in the ...

On behalf of another member I have been asked to post this....

We are starting to become aware that we have been programmed. We can't remember what was done to program us though... It gives us terrible body memories and hence extreme anxiety and hence switching and hence amnesia. So we can't see how to progress, if you can't remember the trauma, you can't process it to make the body memories stop and if you ...

Can anyone relate? This whole week has been rough..I feel real and present on and off, but even when I do I just can not process anything. In conversations, I feel like I am present, but it is impossible to focus and pay attention. I haven't ever experienced this before- usually i have memory lapses and I'm in and out of the talking. And its difficult, because I feel like I'm present, but I have ...

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Please talk to me, I dont have anyone to talk to about DID...

Ok, so I was taking some random quiz on dissociation, and came across this message: "Do you find that that you sometimes sit staring off into space, thinking of nothing, and are not aware of the passage of time?" Keep in mind, I am all alone in my house at this moment. So, I say, "Wow! deffinately! All the time!" Then I was like "Haha, I know right?" So I was like "Alright, well I ...