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This is how it feels for me atm

I feel like I'm changing overall and it's thrown the whole lot into chaos

I don't even know how to go about articulating this any further than that

Can anyone relate or what

Hi- this is my first post on this forum. I found it looking for some place to talk about this disorder other than social media (although this might still count as social media? I don't know where forums fall on the spectrum. Anyways- not relevant).

I've been diagnosed with DID for three years now, and was recently diagnosed again after an inpatient stay when a trauma and dissociation PHP triggered a part that couldn't keep ...

It's when a certain one takes over

I've only just realised this is what happens with it
It completely takes over until it's done "it's job" and even if I try and suppress it it's still there, finding other ways out

And I know it's protecting me in its own way but by the time it's done, my reputation is in tatters

I can only really say this here because this is the only place ...

I have now realized that as a host Toni I have prevented alters to ever trully fronting by limiting their goals, ways, behavior. I have co-consciousness with every alter, and experiencing them living so differently from how I as host would live makes me terrified. I think it will benefit me if I let alters live more freely, but I struggle to let that happen, even though I accept them as also me but different ...

Hi everyone, I'm new here. First of all not looking for a diagnosis! I know diagnoses can only be made by a professional and I'm not keen on asking for one here. Rather I'm asking if I should bring this up to a future psychiatrist/therapist appointment and if it sounds similar to your experiences.

I got a comment on an old YT comment I made about my experiences, and someone said it sounded like OSDD-1b, ...

I've been having a really hard time.

One of my other selves has been very present lately. It's one I usually work hard to repress because he makes me feel unstable and I worry about what he will do with/to the life I'm living as the host. I'll call him "V" in this post.

So V has been unleashed. I didn't do it deliberately. I was writing a story, and decided one of the characters ...

I'm thinking that I can't be the only person with this who struggles with their gender identity

I feel like somewhere deep down (probably in a time I've forgotten) that I'm cis gender

However because of the system and the protective nature of it all, my gender identity has got lost

I'm trying to find it because I want to get better because I'm sick of fighting this thing

Let me know of your experiences ...

I dunno

At first it was like I was being taken over by a stranger who wanted all different things to what I was used to

She was so strong that I couldn't fight her

It was things like diet, musical tastes, hobbies and interests etc

Anyway I was sort of consumed by this for a while where all my old likes and dislikes took second place

But now it's like I've got both of ...

It's a long road DID

It's like you never stop learning about yourself and what's inside

In my personal experience this learning about yourself gets easier with age

I've recently noticed something that happens to me when I'm writing

When I'm writing it's like kind of "automatic writing" whereas I'm not fully conscious

After I've written something I get a sense (like a shadow of a memory) that I've written something but I don't know ...

As of the 25th July my goverment will be forcing websites to implement face and ID scans for anyone trying to log into any site that contains medical content, political content, violence, media rated 15 or over, and porn. (of course they have only publicised the it's about stopping kids from viewing porn bit) if you read the whole law it also states that websites will have to provide all data (key logging / posts ...