News of Dissociative Disorders

Belle was heralded by dreams. For about 8 nights over a period of 2 weeks I dreamed I was being raped. Belle's first memories are of dating my ex husband. Her last memories are before my 3'rd daughter was born. During that time I know I was raped once by my ex husband. It started out as innocent enough, but we had just gotten a dog and he held me down as the... well, enough ...

ever had a wound that never fully healed? for the most part you can get a lot of wounds to heal up quite nice, leaving nothing but a scar, and soon you forget where it came from. but what about those that never heal? the ones that dont just leave scars, but lasting memories/nightmares?

its been a few months since it last got to me and it happened again today. maybe its all this talk ...

I felt blue a few weeks ago. Now I feel nothign but RED, red for anger, red for embarrassment, red for blood.

I just found out something bad today, I REALLY am not having a good morning.

I just found out from a very good friend of mine that my EX ahs been telling people that I have alters... BEHIND MY OWN BACK!
There's the small matter of a valentines card that I gave him ...

ITs m,idnight?! already?!
What happened?
:?:

spinning complacently in the darkness, drag from the cigarette, chug of the alcoholic energy beverage located betwixt the index and forefinger. and they call upon me from the doorway a few feet away yet seemingly so distant "john! come play!" my feet agree and dance me over towards the threshold upon which i clumsily stumble in the most graceful of fashions upon my neighbors floor. pulling myself to my feet via my left hand firmly ...

Overly Sensitive
Crazy
Scared
Alone
Worn out
annoyed
and my tummy hurts.

*SIGH* I am not feeling too good.
I am sure it will pass.
But I don't know what to do until it does.
I can't sleep, or clean, or write, or read, or do art, or anything and I dont want to spend money, adn I dont want to really work, and I dont want to be so crazy!!!
Jeez!!
I am crazy!

I'm taking a night off, John's looking to get wasted with his new neighbors and alcohol is something i dont take part of, moral reasons. I'll catch you all later when John sobers up :P

Jack

hey hey friends

so Josh has got a problem and i'm probably expected to help 'cause i usually do but since hes no longer a kid he's starting to realise im a dumbass :lol: i need advice so i can give it to him to get him to be close to me again we seem to be drifting apart ever since his girlfriend realised she hated me. ...

We are feeling really scared, little and afraid of snakes and spiders today.
Not a good feeling, especially when I have to go babysit in an hour.
Yuck.
Some days, I really hate this!
~Amber Ray

So, finally I feel safe enough on here to post my system list. This is a list of the 17 active alters in the system...there are more but they're dormant or inactive.
Everyone listed here is co-conscious, some to a greater extent than others. Most of them have a separate time sphere to the time sphere in this world, earth, so I've notified the ages with my world time and real world time to make ...