News of Dissociative Disorders

I had a memory tongiht.
Still nto sure what triggered it.
When I came backt hough I didn ot know who I was.
Whether I was big amber.
or beth, bonnie, blythe, ben, bannie, baby, bailey, barley, or bally.
I am still sort of confused.
And really out of it.
One of the alters is in self destruct mode, adn its really messing with me right now.
maybe if i jusdt go to bed I ...

I have one alter i really do not like. She lives in a dark, damp cave and she has been popping in to say hi for the last week. today was a good day, talked to my best friend all day. But something has stirred her out of her slumber, and she is trying to come out. I feel sleepy and tired, kinda lonely. Have the house to myself and will have for 2 more ...

So I am listening to The Cure and working myself through some anxiety I was starting to feel. "Disintegration" is one of my fav all times CDS EVER! "Plainsong" just sends me into a zone where the cave dweller can't get to. The music touches me and energizes me. I actually sometimes dance my silly little dance but shhhh, don't tell anyone.
I wonder does anyone else have certain songs or cds that banish the ...

I couldn't think of a clever song title to use, so I went with an excellent description of how tonight went. Lemme tell ya... I did AMAZING! The show went a thousand times better than I expected! People were totally into it, and thought I was hilarious with my goofy-ass songs about raptors and zombies and being drunk and what-have-you. I choked up a couple times out of nervousness, but otherwise I did really well, ...

Does anyone else find they read more than one book at a time? My alters all like reading different subjects so it is not uncommon for me to read 3 books at once. One likes funny, another likes thrillers, one is into conspiracy theories, one likes to read newspapers even though it makes her sad. I have found that they all seem to be into self help books so that is the one subject they ...

hello people, I was just hoping you could perhaps give me some insights as to whether I'm insane or what.

for as long as I can remember I've thought in this weird conversational way, like two parts of my personality arguing. For example, in stressful situatons(which for me is prettymuch any kind of social interaction or independent decision-making) one part of my brain will either start having a panic attack and babbling about wanting to ...

are any of you as indecisive as i am? i never really notice it... in fact i consider myself to be quite good at coming to resolve. but lately its being brought to my attention that im overly fickle...more so than usual. and now that its pointed out ot me i really see it.


today i was at baja fresh eating lunch when i was just looking around thinking to myself "man, i live in ...

expanding my musical horizons. picked up a harmonica from my music man rich yesterday. never played one before but its easier than i thought. so far i know how to play the mario theme :P and im learning the fundamentals of blues on the harmonica. good times

I'm having a difficult time identifying my dominent personality. I seem to go in and out of alters so often that their equal opportunity masks "the" host. I have never felt "grounded" to just one person...at least a main person, the person that would be ME!
Where am I?
Could one of my alters be that strong and controling to hold ME hostage?? :roll:

It's driving ...

I have a completely... COMPLETELY... evil evil evil Alter. His name is Lucifer (I named him LOL) He's in his thirties. He does not feel pain, is extremely strong, and could even probably break a bone and he wouldn't feel it. (but all the pain goes to me when I come back >.>) Anyways.

He's really hard to control, today he almost KILLED everyone in my 5th hour. I had a grip on him though, ...